Monday, August 30, 2004


I Miss You Like Crazy


Ok, so it has been a very long time since I last posted. Whoops. Better post before bloody Marcus starts bugging me. Again.


Let's see, what's happened lately? The more memorable ones are- Xingwen, Marcus and I went to Esplanade Library on Friday to look for the Percussion Ensemble score. Lets start from the beggining of the day? After school, went to ask Ms Lela for the key, but she told me that it's not to be open even though Nelson said it was. so irritated lo. Sat down outside in Band Room baking due to the supreme hot weather. Marcus was doing his orals. He finally came out. Xingwen didn't want to go then because he didn't have any money. So, we decided to go with him to his house to get money and then go to Esplanade. Oh man, I'm addicted to his playground. Especially the swingy-thingy. Haha.. We went there nd the first thing we did was play at the playground. Haha.. So fun can? Oh man. I LOVE it when Xingwen spins supremely quickly. So cool. We spent quite sometime there just being mental and then went upstairs. Said hi to his mice and to Jewel and he took his money and we Ansley, Jialin and I played with his electronic piano thing. That was VERY retarded. We played those songs where already got the sound, then the keys will light up for you to follow. We were like playing that hit the mole game can? So retarded. Haha.. We finally decided to leave his house after ages. Went to the bus stop and Ansley's mum told her to go home. Eden too tired so he went home. We were actually planning on going to the C.O thing later. But ended up not because it was too late. Anyway, found out we had not enough money to do much either so we stopped at my house to take money. Discovered my sister had gotten herself a dog. Sushi, the golden retriever. Oh man, it's the cutest thing on Earth. Ok, so Truffle is still cute. But Sushi is cute too. Oh well. They then came my room and played with Truffle who was comparitively much fatter compared to Jewel. Haha.. And she was more active because she eats Healthy Bits. So now you know what to feed your hamsters. But anyway, Truffle smelt XIngwen and proceeded to sleep. So we came to the conclusion that Xingwen's smell makes Truffle faint. Which was really retarded and all. Haha.. Went outside to take bus and Jialin decided to go home. SO left with the 3 of us. On the bus, Marcus was telling us about these amazing rides in Californian theme parks. They both then felt like puking due to motion sickness. Haha.. Anyway, we went to Esplanade but had to spilt up because I needed to buy The Merry Widow tickets and Sistic closes at 8 while the library closes at 830. IT was nearing 8 then. So, I went by my sorry little self to Sistic to buy the tickets. They cheated my money by making me pay $2 Sistic charge even though its only $1. Damn. ANyway, rushed back to Esplanade. When Marcus finally decided on his score, his cashcard didn't have much money. So, er. ya. We photocopied as much as we could and then went for dinner at 9 pm in Raffles City. After that, introduced Xingwen to Crepes and Cream which he felt was so good. So, we just sat at the stairs and waited for him to be done. Marcus was being emo and very quiet. For a change. Haha.. Xingwen was telling me some stuff about the people in Band. Ok, he wasn't telling me. He was just saying that he knew and he didn't want to tell me. Damn. So, we finally went home.


Ok, I seriously hate this keyboard. So, I'm not going to blog anymore because it's making me mad. Tommorrow's Be Yourself Day. Haha.. So cool. I can't wait. Anyway, ciao.

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Hmm..


Marcus, you bloody bitch. Stop bugging me already ok? I update now. Happy? I FREE?!?! HAHAHA! That's the funniest thing I've heard so far. Now I have the Offstage tickets I very busy ok?! You come be BMA la. Walao.


Ok. I'm not exactly mad at stupid Marcus but I just thought I'd write that. Anyway, am using upstairs computer, which I SERIOUSLY hate. The keyboard is bloody stuck and I can't type fast and all the letters mainly come out wrong. Damn. The stupid computer downstairs is spoilt. Shit. I hope my songs will survive the ordeal. And all my stupid files. Damn.


Ok, its been 5 days since I last updated. Hmm.. That is quite long. But Xingwen only updtes once a month. So I'm pretty ok. Anyway, whats happened the past 5 days? I don't really remember either. Oh. I had a terrible headache on Monday. So when I woke up I decided not to go to school. Then Yilin smsed me and asked me what was the period going on. I told her I wasn't in school and found out she wasn't either because she woke up late. I was in the midst of replying her when she got so impatient she called me. Stupid girl.. Haha.. So she called me and told me there was E Maths test and asked if I wanted to go to school during recess. I informed her that my head was bursting, Thank You. But she say E Maths test very important so she got me into going to school with her. But I kept telling her there WASN'T a stupid test but she don't believe me. So I called Wen Bin who is accustomed to answer his phone even during class time and he told me there wasn't. But turns out Yilin already left home so I had to go to school with her anyway. We met at Macdonalds outside my house to study for Physics test which I had happily wanted to not take. But we talked and talked until it was time to leave for school. So we got to school in the end and found out Hidaya just came to school as well! Haha.. Oh. And it's pretty exciting and we agreed to do this more often. Haha..


Ok. I seriously hate this keypad. So here's as far as I'm writing today. Bye!

Friday, August 20, 2004

Utter Embarrassment


Today we had a SFW outing thing with SPS people. It was actually very little people only, even though Benjamin told us ALL THE SPS SEC 3s were going. Anyway, we watched AVP. It's actually quite ok la. It's kind of very funny. Haha.. That woman and the Predator are so compatible. Haha.. So silly. Then in the end the Predator die. Aaww.. So sad. What a tragic love story. Haha.. Whatever. Then we started walking around in circles for about an hour just to decide on where to eat. We decided to go Pasta Mania in the end. Eat liao, then go home. It was a pretty nothing much day lo. I guess.


Ansley, you better not embarrassed me! Ok, so maybe it's not your fault, since it's I want to know de. But still. Argh! Scared.. Haha..


Oh. It's Farah's birthday. Whoo..! Haha.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARAH!! The Breakfast Gang bought her a cake. We so nice right? Haha.. Whatever. She knew something was going on then she keep laughing. Haha.. We were pretty mental this morning. Sing song, eat cake. Then we took a Breakfast Gang photo with a few other people. Haha.. Today's breakfast was especially fun. Haha..


Ok. I don't even know why I'm blogging. So I think I'll go. Bye!

Thursday, August 19, 2004

Embarrassing can?


It's pretty mean to say this but I wish nobody reads Cecilia's blog. Ok, now that I talk about it people sure will. Haha.. Must she say all those stuff? So embarrassing. Let me quote her ya?
"I think yimeimei is pretty. its like, thrs jst some kind of glamour abt her. even aimran says she stylish oK? she's cool fun to be with and always rocks!"
Well that's the first time I'm hearing someone call me pretty. Haha.. I was reading her entry and suddenly decided to do a self-review kind of thing. Haha.. I want to paste some of my Friendster testimonials here. Haha..


Jiaxin: She's very straightforward which can hurt people sometimes but that's part of her...


Dinie: ur trombone playin is not bad actually.but must IMprove to be betta than me k. A nice lady i should say and she is a good trombonist.She is very smart and she will forever argue with Kok Hoe.


Marcus: she's always emo over things, but sometimes can have plenty of "band major of attitude" kind of attitude... very accomodating breakfast-group-member... she's a give-them-what-they-gave-you kind of person. u friendly to her she friendly to you. but, if u irritate her u die, she'll irritate u back million times more... yup, this BMA is one of a kind, packed with her own unique characteristics...


Farah: she's reallyreally FUN! yupps! makes a great gossip queen, bitching buddy and outgoing senior. woohoo~ hEhehe. wahh..but if she's angry aR. she'll give you THE look. uh huhh. not any kind of look noe. its THE LOOK. she says whatever that's in her mind, whenever she wants to and doesn't care whoever she says it to.


Victoria: Yimei luffs VERY easily but smtimes she gets really moody and doesn't talk. okayy..tt can get quite freaky. hah. ( Farah's scared too u noee. ) She's damn straightforward, frank and criticises everythng she doesn't lyk very openly.


Cecilia: yimei is a real fun person to haf ard with. she mks u luff like no tmr.. but when its time for studying..she can be deaddddd serious. yimei is veri nice, veri funni, veri crappy, veri interesting, veri intelligent, veri greedy for food,


Xingwen: Yimei is really fun to have around, cause when she opens her mouth, half of the time its to laugh... yeah, thats quite mental actually, like everyone else from TWE. haha... band rocks~ Ooops. Basically, you crack the joke, and she starts laughing, and you can't help but to laugh along, at your own joke. She's actually smart, but she just can't be bothered to study much. She studies more than me at least =P


Michelle: tall, bitchy, kinda intelligent, trombone chick!!!, fun-luvin, outgoing..


Yeening: ur laughter is soooo contagious u noe? lolz.. from wat i can see, yimei is a fun- loving and outgoin gal lorx..cute too larx..lolx..and ur *bushy* hair not dat bad larx..


It's really entertaining reading all these people's testimonials for me. The main point of each testimonial is I laugh too much, too often. Haha.. I remember the times I get hysterical during Band. So embarrassing, but yet so fun. I'm weird. Don't know why but I just can't stop laughing. Haha.. I think I'm a bit too straightforward, reading Jiaxin's testimonial. Hmm. But if you get to know me I guess it's ok. Since Farah and Victoria are pretty fine with it. Haha.. Anyway, if ever I've hurt you with my words, sorry. Straightforwardness is just my nature. Bleh~


Whoo..! Tommorrow's Farah's birthday. So exciting. Haha.. We've gotten some stuff for her. Can't wait for tommorrow. And Band on Saturday. Even though it'll be very saddening because Zat won't be around. Sigh. I think I'll end her for today. Haha.. Bye.

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Fuck. I want to cry.


I'm too lazy to change the colour today. So yup. Be contented with looking at the orangy thing my words will be coloured. I don't know why I miss my section mates at SFW SO freaking much. I mean, we were together for such a short period of time, and I hardly talked to them. But I still miss them to fucking much. I miss chatting with Rochelle; I miss watching Aldwyn get mental like a schizophrenic; I miss arguing with Kok Hoe; I miss Nisha laughing at all sorts of things and I even miss Colin blasting which irritates me and all the vulgarities he shares with Dinie. I can't say much about the other people, both Addisons, Matthew and Ho Ying. Sorry you guys, but I never talked to you people. I feel so sad having not spoken to this people. All I said to Matthew was bye and shaking his hand on the last day. Same goes to Addison SAJC. I didn't EVEN speak a single word to Addison St Pats. Oh man. So tragic. I really miss this people. Really really really miss this people. I hope we can get together sometime. It would be really great fun.


Dear Zat,
I know it's pretty pointless to post this now, since you're never going to read it and since you left for Tekong, your holiday island, about 12 hours ago. But I thought I'd just say it. Let me start off with my history with you. We started off on the wrong foot, I guess. I can't remember you taking us before until joined Main Band. I was one of the few that joined Main Band about 2 practices earlier than the rest because my section was in need of more players. There was this day when they were practicing for Speech Day. I couldn't play American Riversongs and Selvam told me to go, if not you'll be angry. So I left. I felt kind of cheated. Haha.. There went my chance of playing for Speech Day. Then we joined Main Band. I thought I was a pretty ok player. I wasn't. I actually REALLY sucked. I heard a lot about you, how you would make everyone cry and all. I was actually abit scared to join Main Band, in fear of you. Haha.. But we had to in the end. I remember we were playing Variations of a French Folksong. I was playing 2nd I think. I remember that there is this part where we have to use mutes. So we did, but too slowly or something. I found it pretty amusing and laughed along with Nelson. You scolded us saying we couldn't play but still can laugh. Another time, we were playing the Gumbie Cat from Phantom of the Opera. I was playing 2nd, and it was the melody. RenLiang was playing 2nd with me, but he couldn't play it. Nelson was the only 1st as Selvam wasn't around. You got each part to play. Nelson got over his and I remember vividly hard my heart was thumping. I was so scared I wouldn't be able to play and you'll scream the hell out at me. RenLiang didn't play anything. And my notes didn't come out that well either. You didn't say anything, but asked that we didn't practice right. I really hated you then. There was also the time when you screamed at my section how your instrument was not your furniture and how Jeevan added, "So don't sit on it." I felt so embarrassed and really wanted you to die. I acted like those you-know-who people. That was my supremely immature and stupid times. So I started to practice and started to improve. And your yellings decreased. I was so glad it did. I don't know when I started to cease my hatred for you. Maybe this year, when I finally started to be able to really play. I ended up in the same class as Xingwen and so started to hang out with him more during Band practices. And so I ended up talking to you more. I guess you were part of the decision making to make me Band Major of Attitude. Haha.. If you were, I would like to thank you for the opportunity you've given me. Thank you also for the help and guidiance you've given me, for all the philosopies you've given me, for all the fun times in Band I've had that you've been part of, for making practice, for screaming at my section. If you hadn't done all those things, I think I'll still suck today. I'll still be that mediocre player I was a year ago. You've done a great deal for the Band. In return, you expect nothing. All you want is our Band to be bonded, to be family. Many people think I'm pro-Zat. I guess I am, but I have my reasons see. These people don't know what my batch has been through. So maybe we haven't been through as much hardship as the SYF '03 Band did, but we suffered a great deal too. You helped us pull through and THANK YOU SO MUCH for dedicating so much of your time to helping us. I will, no matter what it takes, bring this Band together and one day, we'll be bonded, we'll be TWE, the family of musicians. As Victoria said: "we'll solve it as a Band! we're gonna be a banded bonded bandie band band!" Haha.. Lurve you lots Zat!!

Monday, August 16, 2004

Continued


I was reading Ansley's blog. That girl just has the ability to make me cry. I wanted to cry just reading her bloody entry on SFW. Darn. Anyway, I guess I'll continue my story about SFW. Oh. And that bloody Marcus has been bugging me to update.


So anyway, practice at Saint Andrew's was over. It was pretty late liao. Thank God it wasn't our duty to clean up that day. So went out and kept asking the people to move so us big instruments people can keep. I think they don't bloody understand English. Then Colin came over and asked for Nelson, I said he was upstairs and so he asked for our Band Major. I was holding onto my file so I raised my finger. I think he didn't see and asked again. So I started waving my finger around. And he was like, "You?" Fine lo. Don't have to look so shocked right? Ok. I guess I am a pretty unlikely BMA, but still you don't have to look like that. So he told me to rush the TWE people out of the room. Which I did, but they just wouldn't bloody listen. ARGH! Happily taking their time to keep somemore. And he kept coming back to hurry me so I got so frustrated at these bloody people I wanted to kick some of them, and I hadn't even kept my own trombone. Damn. Finally, this guy screamed at us to get out of the room and they get lost at once. Went up and told them the procedures of the next day and the same guy screamed at us to get out of the school again and everyone hurried off. Went with Ansley to Tampines to buy her reed thing. Saw Aldwyn and Colin at the bus stop. I was talking to Nelson and got pretty agitated at him BRINGING THE BAND ROOM KEY TO SFW and was getting really loud so the whole bus stop was kind of like staring at me. Then I told Ansley that Colin was in love with her and she wouldn't believe me. Oh well. Er, other than that. Didn't do much after the last practice. Oh. Then I realised that that was the last time I'm ever going to be in that school. Which is pretty saddening as well. Oh well.


Then came SFW day. It was so irritating that Mr Glosz decided to change the time to 3 pm and so we weren't let off early from school. Damn. Went to 7-11 with to buy chocs for the section. It's pretty cheap skate ones, but I guess it's the thought that counts? Haha.. Anyway, went back to school and we were so unprepared. Everything was done in a rush and all. Finally, the bus started moving and we made our way to Victoria Concert Hall. Oh. The whole morning I had this Concert Nervousness thing. It's not really being nervous, it's just, I think about the upcoming performance and my stomach starts to churn and I then have this extreme urge to puke. I think I'll die next year on SYF day. So anyway, we got there and started taking out our instruments and all. Went on stage section by section. It was SO cool, the place the trombones were sitting. It was raised much higher than the rest of the band. I sat between Rochelle and Han Ling. Then I went off and started collecting wallets and handphones. I felt so rich can. Haha.. With that paper bag full of things. Anyway, at first Jialin told us that we weren't playing Jericho. She said Winnie(?) had asked Mr Glosz and he said we weren't playing. I felt so bloody cheated then. I was telling Michelle about it and I wanted to cry. I had practiced so bloody hard for that song, every time I came back to practice it was to do that stupid chromatics part. So anyway, during the rehearsal, Mr Glosz gave us a choice: if we could handle it, then play. Colin asked me if I was playing, as I had complained to him about it when he callled me about the trombones earlier that day. I wasn't too sure then. Then he was like, play la, play la. Ok lo. Play lo. I love that song so bloody much. Han Ling wasn't sure either, so I told her to jsut play. Haha.. In the end, everyone ended up playing. Everyone just loved the song too much. Haha.. Rehearsal was ok. We played pretty well. I think. I was sitting too near Kok Hoe, so not much entertainment going on. Anyway, talked a lot with Rochelle. Just kept talking and talking. Haha.. Made silly comments about Brando Tan's clothes- which was always back and long sleeved and had patterns on it- and so many other things I can't even remember. Haha.. Then it was dinnertime. Zat had bought us burgers from Mac. So nice. Haha.. So we also had burgers from school which we had ordered. But found out that Siglap had no food. So poor thing. So we gave them our burgers. From the school, of course. Bleh~ Haha.. Dinnertime was spent gossiping with Zat. Haha.. Then went back to tune at 7. It was so exciting at that point of time. Oh man. I could just die of excitement. Haha.. Open doors and the people starting flooding in. So scary. Haha.. Me and Han Ling started looking for people we knew but only saw Shawna and er, ya. Then told Rochelle about some stuff about the people in our school. Oh ya. I remember she told me that her secondary school band was also red coloured blazer. She thinks red sucks. Then I told her it used to be skirts until Mr Glosz changed it. She felt sad for us. Haha.. Then I told her that we also had to wear trackpants for normal practices and she felt really sad for us and was really glad that she could still wear her skirt. Haha.. So anyway, the concert than started. And ended very soon. It was like 1 hour only. We played Fairest of the Fair twice. Love that song. I couldn't really play O Magnum because so soft I couldn't buzz properly. Haha.. Must go practice on that.

And so, SFW was over. We were so rushed for time. I don't know why also. Why can't they just let us say our final goodbyes to these people we've made friends with over the past month of so. Nelson told me why later, but I'm still upset we got so little time with them. I couldn't keep my instrument as all the wallets had been deumped in my case. Haha.. So funny. Then I took out the chocs and Han Ling and I gave it to them. I think I forgot the give to both the Addisons and Dinie. I think. I gave Rochelle and Kok Hoe a piece of paper with a lot of crap on it. Haha.. I was planning to write for all of them but there was absolutely no time. So sad. Matthew so formal, shook our hands. Haha.. Then I was giving Kok Hoe the chocs and he decided to play tug-of-war with me. In the end he decided to take just one. So when all the rushing was over, we rushed downstairs, plonked our instruments down and rushed to get our section photo taken. It wasn't much of a section photo since there was only the TWEmasekians and SAJCians and Matthew. Haha.. So extra. But yup. We took the photos and we were asking for Addison's number because it was his camera. Then I think Kok Hoe was rushing him and Addison went, "Why? You jealous right? They want my number but never asked for yours." Haha.. Rochelle must have a very fun time in SAJC. Can you imagine if Zhi Jian had stayed there? Oh man. Addison, Kok Hoe AND Zhi Jian. A bit too much to handle i think. Haha.. Anyway, I was telling Rochelle how saddening it was that SFW was over liao and she was like, "What? You want more practices?" Haha.. Then she said nevermind what, she can go our concert, and we go theirs. But that's different see. Sigh. And so, I said my final byes to all these people I'm never going to see for the rest of my life that night. Sigh. I am so going to pester Mr Glosz to let us have an exchange with SAJC. Haha..


I've blogged so much. I don't know what else there is to say. Oh. Right. Zat's farewell. I'm kind of like too depressed liao. So I'll do this another day. Then. Haha.. Bye.


It's a little bit funny. This feeling inside. I'm not one of those, who cane easily hide.

Sunday, August 15, 2004

It's a little bit funny. This feeling inside. I'm not one of those, who can easily hide.

That's how Zat started his speech yesterday. I thought I'd do so too. A tad unoriginal, but see, that's how I'm feeling. It's so saddening, that all good things had to come to an end at the same time. It makes me want to cry just thinking of all of it.


Let's start with SFW ya? On Thursday was our last ever practice in Saint Andrew's; the last ever time I'm going to step in that school. At first it wasn't that saddening until it came to and end. We did quite alot that practice since it lasted till 7 at night. And suprisingly, it didn't feel like such a long time due to the fact that we were actually working. Anyway, Han Ling wasn't present that day and I thought I was going to die of loneliness then. At first I did die of loneliness. But not that bad la, got talk a tad to Rochelle. Then came time to play Jericho. I was so excited can? Until he told only the SAJC, SAS ans SPS people to play. So I was plonked in between all this players, Rochelle on my left and Aldwyn on my right. A tad stupid if I continued sitting there. So Addison SPS( there are 2 Addisons in my section) was asked to move to my sit while I move to his because he was sitting at the end. Just my luck, next to him was Kok Hoe. So I moved over there and did nothing for quite some time. Oh, other than the fact he kept bothering me again. Haha.. As usual, he'll ask me if I was ok because I looked very sian. I said I was ok and he said something which I was unable to decipher. Anyway, Mr Glosz then went on with Jericho. I can't remember when but Dinie and Kok Hoe were saying something about SYO, then Kok Hoe said, SVYO. Guess what? Singapore VERY Youth Orchestra. Ok.. Haha.. So silly. Anyway, when we were doing Jericho, he didn't have much time to bother me. anyway, we went on to Merry Widow. So i finally had something to do. At first I was sitting on the right and the stand was so freaking low, I couldn't play properly. So we went on like that till he asked to change place with him. So we changed liao, then he asked me if want to changed back. But he laughed and continued sitting there. So anyway, now I could play properly and he couldn't. Oh ya. When I was still sitting on the right, I at first put the stand very far away so I could see properly. Then he move it closer and said I got specs but he doesn't. Then I asked if that was my fault and told him to get one, and he said he didn't bring. Ok.. So anyway, when I was on the left, I suggested that putting the stand higher might help.
Kok Hoe: "Why? Because you short right?"
Which I definately am not since I am 167 cm which is pretty tall for a girl.
Me: "I am not short!"
Kok Hoe: "I'm taller than you and anyone shorter than me is short."
Fine la! So i went whatever and he started laughing. So I don't care lo, since I can play properly, and he can't. Then we were in the midst of playing and he stopped to adjust the stand so I went, "HA!" and continued playing. Then he gave me the weird look. When the conductor stopped, he informed me about how childish I was and I said, "I told you so." So he went on "HA"ing me and even went, "Dinie! Ha!" Poor Dinie was confused. Haha.. Oh, and the conductor for Merry Widow was a certain Miss Tan. Her discriptions were so funny I couldn't stop laughing. At first she said Rehearsal 2 was like the wind 'swooshing'. So I started to laugh. Kok Hoe went, "What? if you very good go and conduct la!" But I still continued laughing. Then when we started playing, he did the swooshing sounds because we had rest then I couldn't stop lauhing. Again. Then he said that she should use a bamboo stick to conduct. Then he was teeling me how to play the semi-triplet part and I said, "I figured that long ago." He went, "Thanks to me right?" I couldn't be bothered to say anything. Haha.. SO we moved on until Rehearsal 11 I think. The percussion part. He informed me that it sounded like Hawaii to him. Which doesn't make sense since Hawaii does NOT sound like that.. Then everyone was getting restless and making a lot of noise. Addison SAJC got pissed and went, "Eh, enough ok? We're suppose to end at 7 right?" Which was pretty sudden comeing from Addison, didn't know he would do that. Anyway, after that, Kok Hoe became very quiet and nobody bothered me for the rest of the day. Oh. I think it was during Jericho. He asked my if i wanted to smell his tie. Ew. Why would I want to do that? And he was pondering how long it'd been since he last washed it. Then he put it in his mouth and I'm not sure what he did with it. When I first sat there, he told me he was hungry. I nodded my head to acknowledge his words and he said, "I'm hungry la. Never ask you right?" Then I asked him what could I do anyway? He said I could offer myself to be eaten. Right.. Then he asked if this SAJC girl was chio. I think I didn't say anything.
Kok Hoe: "But my girlfriend more chio. You know who my girlfriend is?"
I shook my head.
"But you know what, you see before. She is RIGHT here! In THIS room."
Me: "Wow..."
"If you try to seduce me she'll come and slap you."
Ok, and why would I want to do that. So I couldn't be bothered with him. And wrapped his arms around himself as if to protect himself or something and started laughing.


I think I'll end here for now. So much to write about. I'll continue tonight or something. Bye!!

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Boredom Sinking In


My life revolves around Band. Yet, I still feel rather bored even though we have been having Band practices almost nonstop for the past few days. Ok, let's put it this way. I have a WHOLE lot of fun when we're having Band, then when we leave Saint Andrew's School things just go back to being SUPREMELY boring. So I'm currently sitting in front of the computer screen not even knowing what to post about because I am SO BLOODY BORED. Yup.


SFW today was pretty ok. We had combine sectionals in the morning. From 9-11. Then we had 45 minutes of sectionals. We didn't do much during sectionals. Which was not very good, but oh well. Went for lunch and gossiped with Marcus, Eden and Ansley. Eden ordered 3 cups of drink. So our table was like full of cups. Then they were talking about Chin Chow and Marcus said something about authentic Chin Chow in Korea, I think. Then Eden said it was bugs, green and slimy. Then they went on about all the non-sensical details about gruesome bugs in Chin Chow. Which was really silly. Then when we were walking back, we past by this Chicken Rice stall i think. And they were hanging the Taiwan Sausage at the display thingy and it looked REALLY obsence. Haha.. Went for full band after that, it was REALLY long. About 4 hours I think. During October, the H there, the conductor was asking the 1st to play. And he also asked the Bass to play. So the JC girl and I were like praying he wouldn't call us to play. So silly. Then he said Tuba and we were like, Phew! Haha.. So dumb. Nothing really much happened today lo. Kok Hoe wasn't here, so lack a bit of fun. Haha..


Oh, I was looking at people's socks. And they look SO nice. Ok, now I want socks for my birthday. Haha.. Must be stripes one k? Haha.. And ankle socks please, don't buy me football socks. Oh, and I think toe socks are cute. Haha.. So silly.


So sian, after so many days of break, we must go back to school. Argh. Here's a I-can't-wait-to-graduate moment. Haha.. But then, I was reading the Essays some people gave me yesterday. Their, Why I Choose To Stay In Band Essays. After I read it, I felt so sad. Like shit, in a years' time it'll be my turn to step down, my turn to graduate, my turn to leave the Band. Oh man. I so do not want too.


Then when I thought of all this sad things, I thought of how SFW ends this Friday. Oh man. You know how saddening that is? I'm never going to see Kok Hoe, Nisha (erm, how to spell?), Edwin (I think that's his name), Colin, Dinie, that SAJC girl (her name is something Chelle one.. Haha..), Edison (or is it Adison as I saw on his trombone case?), that Baby-faced guy, Matthew (I think that's his name) and Ho Ying (er?) ever again in my life! Ok, that's a bit too exaggerated. Since I'll be seeing them the next day at Junior Band Festival; I'll sure work with the other Majors from the other schools one day; I gues we'll have workshops? Shit, this is SO saddening. I so don't want SFW to end. *Sobs*


I guess that's all I have to say for today. Shall sleep extremely early today. SO freaking tired. Haha.. Bye!

Sunday, August 08, 2004

Ok. Whatever.


I was actually typing out a post about the Sec 1s. But I got so sick of thinking about those people and what I want to say about them. So, I stopped. Anyway, if I posted it, I'm sure I'll have a VERY, VERY fun time being their Band Major.


My bloody mother won't shut up. Because my brainless sister called her dumb friend in Aus. and talked for quite some time. Now my bloody mother just won't shut up and orders us around to do stuff. Argh. Then she calls us invalids because we don't do our house chores and even if we're at home we don't do anything either. Ok. Whatever. Just shut up already.


Today's Festival Winds was, shall I call it, very memorable. The main thing being Mr Glosz screamed his head off at us. We were doing Merry Widow. Rehearsal 4 I think. When he cut us off, somebody played something in an unmusical way. Mr Glosz wanted to know who it was, but the person just wouldn't admit it. So, he blew his top and started screaming and screaming. Soon enough, vulgarities started spouting. Anyway, he thought it was the trombones. Thank god it wasn't. The 3rds tried to explain to him that we didn't even have a note there and that it was probably a French Horn. I thought it was a French Horn too, it sounded so much like one. Anyway, the Horns said it was us. Oh well. Mr Glosz then decided that we would not continue until that person admits his mistake. We sat there for 10 minutes++ until John (I think that's his name) asked Mr Glosz if we could just continue. Which we did. Oh well. It was VERY scary seeing Mr Glosz scream like that.


Practice today was SO long. I was like so tired. It was pretty fun though, as usual. Haha.. I love going for Festival Winds and it's so sad that it's going to end this coming Friday. Sad.. I wish it'll never have to end. I like this SFW Band. Very funny. And the music is nice, though a bit WAY too massive. Haha.. But oh well. Sadness of it all.


I'm currently listening to the recording of St. Patricks' Legends and Heroes. Sweet Betsy sounds so cute. Haha.. Tomorrow's national day. Hmm.. I wonder how to parade will be. Reminds me of Sec 1 days when we were in it. Haha.. So fun. I wish we had SFW tomorrow. Haha.. Whatever.


Hhaha.. Guess what I heard? A squeak. In Sweet Betsy. I think. Haha.. So funny. Oh man, I love this part. Anyway, I think I better go. Oh, something to say before I do:


Sec 1s, just fucking grow up ok?

Friday, August 06, 2004

Why I choose to stay in Temasek Wind ensemble


This is actually something that Zat told us to write for him, to be given at tomorrow's practice. I thought I might as well post about it, since I have nothing much to post about, and that the Band seems to be crumbling.


Why I joined Band, I have no idea. I don't even know what they played during my Secondary 1 orientation, nor what made me put down Symphonic Band when they gave us the CCA choice list. But whatever it is, I sure have ABSOLUTELY no regrets of doing so, and THANK GOD I did.


When I was in Sec 1, I didn't enjoy Band. At all. Our conductor was absolute crap and we were mainly ignored most of the time. I don't even remember attending 1/2 of the Band practices. I only know that I stuck myself to my classmate- Jialin. They rest of the Band didn't really seem to exist. Nobody really seem to care what they were doing. My Sec 1 life was spent drifting throug Band practices- no purpose, no music made, no care or concern what-so-ever.


Everything changed when I was in Sec 2. I was a tremendously terrible player. I had no idea what in the world tonguing meant, or tone, or articulation. My seniors came to my rescue and put me back on track. Slowly, I came out of the world where Band meant absolutely nothing. When I played that correct note, joy ran through me. That feeling of joy, completely indescribable. I woke up and a spark within me was ignited. My love for Band, for my instrument, for my section, for all those people I've grown to love just expanded as each day passed. And to this day, it is still growing.


Gradually, I improved and ended up where I am today. I may not be the best Trombone player in this school, but I'm trying, I'm working forward to that day when Mr Glosz will finally praise me, for that correct, wonderful Trombone tone. It is a challenge, that I must face, as every new day of practice draws near. But it is a good challenge, something, that the Temasek Wind Ensemble works together to overcome. I stay in Band, because I just love new challenges.


We, the Temasek Wind Ensemble, are a family. We've been brought together to make magic, magic from music, from notes, from scores. This is one of the many reasons why I choose to stay in Band. TWE is my family, and I'm extremely glad to be part of it, to be among this people who share the same love, the same passion as I do. We may all be different people with different characteristics, but that doesn't matter. We still love each other as much and work together to improve this Band.


I stay also because I have a mission, I want to improve the Band. Today, I hold a post and I have no idea why Eugene and Co. gave it to me, but I'm glad they did. I want to get more baskets, I want to get the notice board filled, I want to get my section to be the best ever, I want to do something about the shoes that lie around outside the Band Room in a mess, I want to stop the chairs from receding closer and closer to the Percussion. Most importantly, I want to repair our broken bond, to have us all loving what we're doing and knowing our purpose of sitting there, in that seat in that Band Room we call home.


I do love music, and I wish I could play my Trombone forever more. My passion to make music will never die and I will stay in Band forever more if I could. I stay also to inspire other people to do the same- to show them the wonders of music, to let them have that pleasure they never experience elsewhere, that sense of satisfaction of playing something correctly AND musically. I want these Bandits to love their instruments, to let it be part of them, to love what they're doing so much, they never want to leave.


Why do I stay in TWE? Because of all the fun times we've had and always will have together, because of all the line dances Zat will teach us, because of all those makan cheers we have to create, because of all those songs I love and play, because of all those people I love, because of all those times listening to Zat being funny-angry and going a bit made, because of my Trombone that has become part of me.


Why fo I stay in TWE? Because of these memories, these emotions TEW gives me, these will stay with me forever more and the are so, SO priceless.

That's why I stay in Band.



It's pretty saddening to see the state the Band lies in now. As Zat put it, we are good players, but we just don't have that special bond. Zat spent quite some time explaining to Marcus, Xingwen, HaoJie and I about all these bond stuff. These days, Band practices are rather empty. There's something missing and nothing seems to be done about it. It saddens me. It's like, I've already failed, even though I just started. Sigh. I think I shall go wallow in self-pity. Bye.

Monday, August 02, 2004

SFW and other stuff


Ok, let's start with today's happenings. Easier to remember. Ok. Today was suppose to be an exciting day. Due to the fact the Melvin was going to get screamed at by Mr Eng because he vandalised the Physics lab table and wrote stuff about Mr Eng. But suprisingly, Mr Eng stopped screaming pretty quickly, which spoilt all the fun. As usual, he went on about how "I don't want the calss to be so tense." "This is how you make me angry?" "You explain to me!" "I make some jokes to lighten the atmosphere." "You spoilt my mood." Blah blah blah. We can practically repeat after him. Anyway, he finished screaming pretty quickly. Which sucks, because that meant we'll have a lot of leftover time for Physics. Oh well. Other than that, can't remember anything much happening in class today.


After school, the Sec 3 and 4 committee got together to get their photos taken. Not together, but as a committee. We had ours early. It was so silly. We did various pose. Let me recall, act cute; point in some sort of direction, the No Evil thing, acting like various famous people. That's all I can remember. Oh, and the WHE! pose. Haha.. That was REALLY silly. Anyway, let's see. The famous person one. SO freaking silly. Eden was Superman, I was Wonder Woman (right..), Xingwen was Stanford Raffles, Nelson was Hitler, Ansley was Mother Teresa, HaoJie was a something which I can't remember. Ok. It's like very long, so I shan't go into the details. It was just SO BLOODY SILLY. Haha.. Then I waited for the Sec 4 comm to come. While waiting for all of them to gather, the already there Sec 4s were busy trying each other's instruments. So Eugene was trying out Selvam's trombone, then I was practicing Jericho. So you know the chromatics part? I was practicing that part, so Eugene just follow along, which was so funny. When I finished, he was like, "Oh man, this is so fun!!" Haha.. SO funny can? Then I was trying to teach him the thing and he was like, "Never mind, I"ll just follow your slide." Haha.. Just to fill you in, the chromatics on the trombone is very simple, you just move down one position. Haha.. So anyway, finally all the Sec 4s were here, then must lock the room liao. So they went outside to take lo. They had a normal shot, which now that I think about it, we don't. Haha.. Anyway, they had a shot that spelt Zat and one of TWE. But they too big so must take separately. Haha.. Oh ya, they took with the Singapore flag and were doing some salute. Haha.. Eugene was like, "Oh man, do I have to do this. So embarrassing." Just like Nelson. You should see him in our photos.. Haha..


That's about it for today la. I'm currently listening to Jericho. I can't stop listening to that song can? It's so freaking bloody nice. Oh man. Here comes the chromatics part. Haha.. I listen liao also want to laugh. Haha.. So silly.


Anyway, on Sunday we went for tuition. Oh. Here's the tom-tom part. Haha.. I was telling the breakfast table gang how much I loved this part. And Victoria was like, "You love the tom-tom or the tom-tom player?" Haha.. Right.. Xingwen, I loved his hands.. HAha.. Whatever. Anyway, Sunday. We spent a lot of time at tuition. Did a lot of things really. Than Cecelia and I went for dinner. Teppanyaki. How do you spell that? Anyway, I love this part. Haha.. I think it's Victory. Oh man. It's so freaking nice. So, as I was saying, we walked walked abit. Was trying to find something for Yilin's birthday. For those who don't know, I'm like trying to help her advertise. Haha.. Her birthday is this Friday ya. Haha.. Oh man! Here comes our melody part!! Ok.. Eh, ya. We were pretty unsuccessful. Haha.. We went to MPH and played this really really really silly game. There was this book, Disney's My First Words. So got the pictures and the words. We look at the words and try to spot the picture. It was so dumb, I couldn't stop laughing. Went home pretty late. Haha..


SFW. As usual, Kok Hoe was making fun of me. Again. It's pretty funny. Really. Haha.. Let's start from the beginning ya? When we were tuning, he stood in front of me and pretended to want to tune me but moved on to Hanling. Right. Then he came back to me, when I brought up my instrument he was like going to walk off but decided to tune me. Right.. Haha.. Oh. And he has supremely short-termed memory? He told us to take out Legends, but ask us who was playing what part for Merry Widow. So we were all like confused and all. Then he asked us, "Did I say to play Legends or Merry Widow?" Right.. I can't remember half the things he did during sectionals. Oh right. I think we drove him mad during Merry Widow. Haha.. The part where we have the quavers, we just couldn't keep in pulse. So he was banging away ont eh table like mad. Haha.. We drove him so mad that he fell asleep during our break. Haha..


During Full Band, I was originally sitting at the back. But he told me to go in front and sit with Hanling, whom he called my good friend. So I moved in front. Then the 2 of us keep talking. So he decided to plonk himself between us so we couldn't talk. Then he asked me if I could find anyone in the Band Room handsome. I was like, "You asked me last week if Colin or Dinie were shuai." He went, "Really ar? I don't remember." Oh, and he didn't remember putting me in 2nd for Legends either. Anyway, then he told me that he had gotten a new haircut. I was like, "What new haircut?" He acted "angry" and went and asked Hanling if she noticed, she was like, huh? What haircut. So he "angry" with us and went on about how he was sitting in the the centre, so he won't talk to us, we won't talk to him, Hanling and I ccan't talk. We were like, good! Then he asked us,"Truthfully, do I irritate you both?" Hanling was like, Yes. Haha.. Then he said, at least you'll remember me. Ok.. Haha.. Then he moved behind to play 1st for Legends. He saw I was playing 2nd and told me to get lost. I was like, you asked me to move in front one lo! Then he moved to the back. He lent my pencil and threw it onto the floor because got no lead. Right.. Then he told me must accent and staccato properly, especially me. He purposely one lo.. Then when he move in front, he was like, "DId you miss me?" I said a very sarcastic yes, and he went, "So Fake."


Anyway, I think I better be going. Bye. I'll write back another time.

Sunday, August 01, 2004

Nearing. Soon.


Finally. My bloody birthday is approaching. Finally. After a year of waiting, it's finally going to come. Haha.. Not that it's tomorrow or anything, but it's a month++ to go. Haha.. WHEE! Can't wait. Anyway, I thought I'd come up with a Birthday Wish List, to help you guys who want to buy me something. Haha.. So bloody thick-skinned. But better than to receive presents that are completely useless. Haha.. So here it is.


1) If you're going to buy me slippers, I'm a 7.
2) If you're going to buy me a shirt or some sort of top, I'm a M.
3) If you're going to buy me a CD, I hate Christina Aguilera, Avril Lavigne, Blue, Atomic Kitten, Beyonce, music in other languages not English. I like Th Calling, Switchfoot, Evan and Jaron, erm.. I can't remember. Anyway, if you're even planning on buying me a CD, ask me first ya? In case I already have it. Haha..
4) If you're going to buy me books, I love fantasy, comedy+love. Actually, I mostly read everything..
5) If you're going to buy me a jigsaw puzzle, I love those with disney stuff on it. And Killer Whales!! Especially Killer Whales. Haha..
6) If you're going to buy me ornaments, I LOVE Happy House. Haha.. Snowglobes will do too. Aiya, anythign Happy House is great. Haha..
7) If you're going to buy me sationary, I kind of like collect notebooks. Haha.. Right. Anyway, as usual, Happy House is best. Haha.. I like colour pens too. Haha..
8) If you're going to buy me soft toys, please buy me the Happy House pig. It's the cutest thing on Earth. Haha..
9) If you're going to buy me a pencil box/wallet/bag, do remember, i LOVE Roxy. Haha.. Paul Frank also can la. I like slingbags. Please don't buy backpacks. I feel funny carrying those things.. Haha..


Erm, that's all I can think about right now le.. Hmm.. If I can remember anything else than I write in next time? ANyway, want to go already. Need to fix my template. Again. Bye.

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