Saturday, April 30, 2005
I'm feeling pretty suicidal after Thursday's A Maths Common Test.
10 ways to commit suicide:
1) Hang yourself
2) Stand in the middle of the road
3) Jump into the Singapore River. Or the school pond.
4) Overdose yourself with Panadol. Or your mum's high blood pressure pills.
5) Cut your wrist. Or neck.
6) Get yourself into such a fright that you get a heart attack.
7) Jump off a building. Preferably something pretty high.
8) Shot yourself.
9) Bang your head against the wall.
10) Feed yourself to the lions in the Zoo.
Other than that, live's been pretty normal. I'm suppose be studying for my Social Studies on Tuesday but thought I'd take a break of some sort. My dad says I can upgrade my phone. Which is really exciting. Minus the fact that most phones are SO expensive right now he most probably won't let me upgrade after all. Oh well. My mum's removed my bed, so now I don't have a bed to sleep in. So I have to sleep in my sister's room on the floor. Oh. And the Chinese Composition was pretty ok yesterday. Minus the fact that I couldn't stop sneezing. It was so irrtating I couldn't do the compo properly. I had to go the toilet after I was done just to clear the substances in my nose. The only sound in the whole class was just my sneezing. Which was pretty embarrassing. Yuying said it kept her awake. Oh well. I gotta go. Help my dad fix something. Ciao~
the angels sang over and over again__ 2:04 PM;
Friday, April 22, 2005
It surprises me how easily some people can drop things. Just drop it. Like that. Like as if it never mattered in the first place. Like as if it is of ABSOLUTELY no significance. You think that just because an important event is over, what we worked for now no longer exist. You're so wrong. So totally wrong. And it makes me so disgusted just how easily you can drop things.
It also surprises me how easily people judge others. Like how they don't like a particular person. Justified, some ACTUALLY have reason to not like that person. But do others have any reason? Do you even have a SOLID reason for not liking him? Do you even know the person? Or do you just not like him because you heard things about him from other people? It is, isn't it? And that's not being fair to him. And it makes me change my judgement of you because of how easily you follow the crowd.
So many things that people do that's totally unexpected. But I guess you'll never know until you see it coming. Just like how funny you have been lately. And how I can't seem to stop staring at you when I'm given to chance. Totally unexpected. But. Kind of cool actually. Hmmm..
Well. Today was my last practice for a very long time to come. Going to miss everything alot. In fact, I think I'm going to miss playing Merry Widow and Singapore Rhapsody. Relatively. Yep. Can't wait to go back and start practicing for Brisbane. Can't wait for Brisbane in fact.
Needn't be so smug you know. As good as you are, you needn't tell others how much they suck. It just makes me hate you so much more.
Till the next time then. Ciao~
the angels sang over and over again__ 7:52 PM;
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Well. We did it.
GOLD WITH HONOURS. YEAH!!!!!!!
Started the day of feeling pretty ok. The same old pukish feeling as SFW. But it got ok. Then went for practice. Then I found out.
Anger. Pain. Jealousy. Hurt.
Everything just flooded in. I don't know why I even feel this way. I knew it couldn't possibly be me. I mean like. Duh. I've waited so long for this day. And it finally came. Then it faded. In no time. No time at all. I was angry. So angry at first. How. In which way was I not better? Which aspect. Which angle. So angry. So hurt. So sad. And then I couldn't be bothered anymore. Really really. No more.
And nothing matters anymore. Cause we did it. Gold with honours. That natural "highness". The screaming/crying/laughing session I shared with Xingwen. All that hugging with various TWE members. That happiness. Nothing. Nothing can take it away from me.
Not even you.
Friends forever. Always will be. Never will change.
Band:
I'm SO proud of you guys. I know today sucked. I'm not going to be in denial and say that I too wasn't dissappointed. I am. Really am. Like where did all the "honours" go to? I hope you guys get a grip soon ok? I've only 3 days left. I can't change much. It's your turn to shine now. Let the TWE legacy live on ok?
Best of luck Eden, Kekang, Benny and Farah.
the angels sang over and over again__ 9:25 PM;
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Your words they've made me cry.
How do you forget the one you love
to wipe him from your mind
Memories aren't good enough for me
there's so much more I want to hold
How is it you can just ignore me
and have no idea how I feel
I guess there's no point holding on if you want to break free
So goodbye to you, my lovesick boy.
Aboslutely not worth it anymore.
the angels sang over and over again__ 7:53 PM;
Saturday, April 02, 2005
I guess there's no point holding on when you're running off in the other direction so fast. No point getting hurt anymore. No point feeling jealous about the someone else in you mind. No point having any feelings for you anymore.
Goodbye lovesick boy.
I only fear that one day when you're no longer in my mind I start appearing in yours.
Hate the way you act sometimes. Hate the way you don't seem to care. Hate so many things that you do.
Get over yourself demanding bitch.
Lovesick boy. Demanding bitch.
Hate you both.
the angels sang over and over again__ 10:14 PM;
