Monday, November 28, 2005
so. it's been a long time since i last blogged. i'm quite tired of holding shift every now and then, so now, i can't really be bothered. i shall just not use capital letters. hek hek hek.
quite bored really. don't know what to blog about. tommorrow's my class chalet. my mother actually let me stay over. whee. can't wait. haha. i don't really sound very excited do i? oh well. i feel like going escape. even though it's a total waste of money. but oh well. haha. not sure what's i'm going to bring there. i hope the guys don't drink so much that they get drunk. i can't stand it when guys JUST HAVE to drink. like as if their lives depend on it. and it's not just a few cans, it's so many that they get drunk. that's totally irritating la. if that happens, i'm so coming home to sleep lo.
the spirit of enterprise thing is over. yay. won 3rd overall prize. not bad. haha. oh well. heck it.
saw you there. not sure if you saw me.
QAZIM!!!!qazim shamelessly told me to say that i will miss him after we leave secondary school. well.
haha. kidding. anyway. qazim, i WILL miss you in fact. you and all your crazy random stuff. so bloody gila. haha. well. i had fun. in this one year of being your friend. shorter than that really. but still fun. haha. we SO have to go down to the airport again one day to check out eugene crew. haha. wonder if he misses us too. hmmm. haha. oh well.
but then. what's there to fret? you'll be joining us at sajc anyway. haha. after the first three months at least. during the first three months, you will be gatecrashing us eh? see. we'll still have alot of each other's company. haha. so don't be sad la. haha. crazy guy.
think i'll sign off here. feel like playing games.
the angels sang over and over again__ 10:32 PM;
Monday, November 21, 2005
If another person comes and tells me not to go to SAJC, I swear I will scream vulgarities. That is SERIOUSLY pissing me off.
In primary school, there was this girl that most of the class didn't like. Her name was Deborah, and she was not exactly the most popular girl in the class. Many of us didn't like her- didn't want to be in the same group as her; play games with her; talk to her. We didn't like her, and slowly we convinced ourselves that we hated her.
Hate is such a strong word. I'm quite sorry that I never gave her a chance. That I decided that I shall dislike her from day one and never try to be friendly to her.
Aren't we a little, I don't know, young to hate? Dislike is one thing, hate another. Are you sure you hate us? Dislike us for all I care. I don't mind having one less supporter in you. But what really pisses me off is that you have no valid reason to do so. I have never done anything to you, and you can't dislike me for what I can't control.
But if you want to dislike me, it's ok really. At least I know I gave us a try.
Finally got a dress for Grad Night. Yay.
the angels sang over and over again__ 11:00 PM;
Friday, November 18, 2005
It's over.
Thank god.
Now everything feels a bit weird. I don't know why. There seems to be something I need to be doing. Like study. And study. And study. But oh well. I guess it's over.
With all the free time now, I don't know what to do. It's quite retarded. I know. But well. I don't know. What shall I do with my life right now?
Was eating dinner with the gang just now. Or the fellowship as Brian calls us. Suddenly, it sunk in that it's our last year. And it was like SHIT. I don't want it to be over. I don't want to let go. I don't know what I'll do without these crazy bunch of people. I know Ansley, Jialin and hopefully Xingwen will still be with me next year. But it's different. What am I gonna do without Brian? Lek? And most importantly, Celia?
Our friendship. Man. I don't know what to say about it. Haha. We'd had our ups and downs. Sometimes, we piss the hell out of each other. But we're still friends. After all the stuffs. You're my kuku friend. The one I can do the craziest things with. Sigh. What the hell am I gonna do without you in SAJC? I'll miss you girl. And jubjub. Haha.
Who's gonna stand with me at the traffic light? Who's gonna step on my toes? Who's gonna try to tickle me? Who's gonna bitch about with me?
Thanks for being my wonderful friends, you guys. Really.
the angels sang over and over again__ 10:30 PM;
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Apparently, Xingwen opened my blog and was wondering when I started being so poetic. And who the heck traumatized me so much. Haha. How very retarded. He soon realized it was song lyrics.
I suddenly like My Chemical Romance ALOT. I don't know why. I really love The Ghost of You. I think it's such a nice song. Such a sad one too. With such a sad sad MTV. Oh well. It's a really nice song. I think it's way nicer than Helena. You should all go check it out.
I know I should be sleeping right now. But oh heck. I woke up late this morning. I set my alarm for 6:30 because I wanted to wake up and study Geography. When the alarm rang, it stopped it and carried on sleeping. I forgot to restart it. I recieved a call from Ansley. I was wondering what the heck was going on. Why my phone was so noisy. Then I saw Ansley's name and the time. 7:30. I picked up the phone and started screaming FUCK into Ansley's ear. Oops. Haha. Quite funny now that I think about it. Sorry Ans. Haha. Thank god I lived near the school. Got there in time still. Phew. Thank god Ansley called. Phew.
Today was the Physics paper in the afternoon. I studied Electricity and Magnetism like crap. Seriously. I memorized all the stuff. Lenz's Law and Faraday's Law are STILL stuck in my head. The stupid paper came out. Guess what? There was NO CRO AT ALL! Argh. And Electricity was like total minor component. How freaking crappy was that? Should have seen that coming huh? Since there wasn't Electricity in our Practical either. Hell.
Well. It ends in like 2 days. I so can't wait. Total bliss. But right now, I'm basically panicking like mad. On Friday, I have History in the morning and Chemistry in the afternoon. I have not touched either subjects. I did a little bit of Chemistry I guess. That's about it. I haven't looked at my History notes since the Prelims. Crap. Please let me be able to cramp everything into my brain by tommorrow. If not I'm so totally dead. By Friday I mean. Shit.
I'm afriad to go for tuning in. To go to SAJC for that matter. I'm afraid I'll be a lousy player. I totally don't want that. I don't want to be inferior to my batch mates. Be a lousy trombone player. I don't want that because I remember how that feels. I remember very clearly those days when I was the most horrible trombone player around. I remember how I wanted to cry each time Zat said something about my playing, how I didn't practice and how horrible my tone was. I remember people being biased against me because I wasn't a good player. I don't want those things to happen again. Ever. Because those feelings just aren't very pleasant.
Dammit. Now everything feels weird. Though it seems ok, it's still weird. The thought will always be somewhere in my mind. When I look at you, when I talk to you. Everything is just wrong now. Dammit.
Let's pray I wake up on time tommorrow morning.
the angels sang over and over again__ 10:35 PM;
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Lalala. I'm on the phone with ansley now. Trying to blog. Or something. Been studying like a mad idiot the past week. Haiyo. Absolutely no life la. Damn sad. Been going to the airport. Second home. Haha. Made a few "friends" at Marrybrown. Mainly Jialin's friend and Eugene Crew/Chew. I wonder which it is. I think he's.. a bit. Funny. Haha. Oh well. I think they recognize us. How very embarrassing. Haha. Whatever.
Can't believe the O's are actually starting next week. So fast. Can't wait for it to be over. Then it'll be TOTAL ABSOLUTE bliss. WHEE!! Haha. Of course, we'll be very busy with entrepreneurship. Though it'll be fun. Yay. And grad night. Oh crap. Which I don't have anything to wear. Or any idea what to do to my hair. I'll probably look like an idiot that night. Totally retarded and unprepared. How very sad. Oh well. Whatever.
Qazim, I think your under the gun song is a bit weird.. Haha. Does not sound at all like what you sang. Really. Haha. But it's nice. I guess. Catchy. Still like All these things I've done better. Haha. And Mr Brightside. Haha.
Changed my song thingy. When you open my blog that thingy. It's Deep and Meaningless by Rooster. It's a very nice song! Go download. Haha.
Lost this week was like freaking tragic. Cannot stand it. Man. Just thinking about it makes me so sad. Lost is SUCH a tragic show. On the brighter side of things, Wonderfalls was WONDERFUL!!! YAY!! Jaye is back with Eric. I knew things would turn out this way. I mean, it had to. It's a happy show. Relatively. Haha. Tru Calling was just.. weird. One Tree Hill was ok. Even though Lucas OBVIOUSLY still likes Peyton. Which is damn sad. I think she likes Jake. But that's quite cute too. Peyton and Jake. Haha. Retard.
Think I better sign off then. Tired of bending my neck so I can use both hands to type. Good luck to all taking O's and A's!!! Haha.
the angels sang over and over again__ 10:35 PM;
