just let me hear the angels sing.

Saturday, December 31, 2005

sometimes people are lucky? but they just don't see it. i think that's sad. just very very sad.

it's 23 hours, 55 minutes, +++ seconds to the new year. as of now la. my sister's laptop's time reads 1:04 AM. oh. it just changed. 1:05 AM. haha. like who actually cares. psycho.

so. it was twe's pop today. cool stuff. haha. never really see pops before. nor played in one la. i think it was very cool? haha. stupid sia. it turned out quite well. i must say the contingent was good. YAY. haha. oh yea. i think farah looks very smart? haha. GOOD JOB FARAH. does she even read my blog. she doesn't use a microphone right? wah. her voice very loud. power seh. haha. wheet wheet. haha. it was good la. i suppose. overall all. GOOD JOB TWE. and the alumni of course. hek hek hek.

my sister is going to sentosa to tan tommorrow. she wants me to go too. please. no thank you. i like being fair. the in thing right now ar? all those help you stay fair creams. haha. no la. i've always liked being fair. which is quite weird right? since most people like to be tanned. haha. well. don't know la. and they're going like freaky early. which means i obviously can't go. since i'm still awake. how the hell am i going to wake up tommorrow? she ask me go there and sleep. which is pretty kuku la. but please. my bed more comfortable ar. crazy bitch man, my sister.

qazim: YAR MARN. HOTTAYE is DAMN hot. he very cute right? happiness man, i know him. haha. whee whee. i introduce you to him la. haha. oh! and he's VERY chinese! haha. your kind PLEASE? haha. you guys will hit it off jst fine. you speaking your malay and him his chinese. haha. funny shit sia. HAHAHA. this 2006 lingo is so fun. haha. we so need to create more words to add to our dictionary for 2006. haha. whatever ar? haha.

i guess i don't really have much else to talk about today. i'm just bored. i guess. oh yea. took the bus home with eugene. after eating at bedok corner. sat with ansley, xingwen and qazim. we ate alot la. haha. bloody pigs. didn't finish the fried kway tiao in the end. oops. alot la. for $3. and it's like a whole freaking lot of fishcake. freaking kuku can. haha. the mutton soup VERY nice. everybody must go bedok corner and drink MAMU KITCHEN's MUTTON SOUP only at $4 and $o.50 for BREAD. see. free advertisement. oh. and the satay is very nice too? the MUTTON SATAY. sigh. heavenly. haha. can't remember which stall. as in the stall name la. but will be able to recognize it. it's the one with the GREEN BOARD. the whole thing is just GREEN. ansley's favourite colour. haha. whatthehell. what else did we have? oh yea. the teh-peng very nice! delicious. for a moment i forgot how to spell. is that the correct spelling? haha. stupid sia. ya. its er, rahima ar? the stall name. haha. sounds wrong AND weird. can recognise la. haha. the cheng tng is very nice too! but the logan is freaking tasteless. it's gross la. it's like chewing rubber. YUCK. but the rest of it was nice. very sweet, the syrup? or soup. whatever you call it la. as i was saying, went home with eugene who is pretty stressed. poor thing. CHILL EUGENE!! take a breather yea? haha. hope you're ok soon and not dream about your other friends giving you enlightening speeches again. though those can be quite good too. haha. eh. got many different shades of blue ar? cool stuff.

now i was sitting waiting wishing
that you believed in superstitions
then maybe you'd see the signs
but lord knows that this world is cruel
and i ain't the lord, no i'm just a fool
learning loving somebody don't make them love you

the angels sang over and over again__ 1:03 AM;

Thursday, December 29, 2005

so. the second post of the day. just thought i'd post again. don't know why. haha.

my sister's friends? the ones from MELBOURNE (thanks celia. haha. embarrassing.) are together. whee. i think it's very sweet. haha. cause she's like him since she's like sec 1. then they grew up together? and finally after so many years, they're together. awww. ain't that sweet? haha. though they're not official la. cause she's going on to university already. then she may be going to england. so long-distance relationships are a no-no. if that happens it'll be quite sad? oh well. but i still think the two of them are very cute together. haha. whatever.

my sister is going out with my prospective brother-in-law tommorrow. i think. he hasn't called her. apparently, he is a pig and is probably sleeping. haha. FUNNY MAN. haha. so anyway, my sister doesn't want me to call him my prospective brother-in-law. but i don't care. haha. i wonder if he realises he needs to please the prospective sister-in-law, yours truly. haha. RUBBISH ar? haha. it's fun dreaming ok? haha. so funny. hek hek hek.

well. my sister is out of the toilet. dang. gotta go then.

and you see much better than i see
and you know all that i'm thinking
to define or redefine too slow
and it seems all that i'm sinking

the angels sang over and over again__ 10:34 PM;

ok. now i can't even SEE my bloody tagboard. like WHATTHEHELL. i think i'm just cursed and should never get a bloody tagboard. oh. and according to nicholas. it can be seen. like WHAT? TEH TEH TEH.

so. er. yea. very long never tag le. haha. school is starting next week. how freaking crappy is that? i think i'll like have no idea what to do on the first day of school. damn sad. sigh. can't believe i'm going to school without jialin, brian, lek and celia. SIGH. at least can go toa payoh and lim kopi with lek. haha. that is just plain ridiculous.

my sister's friends are over from melborne. that's how you spell it right? HAHA. idiot. don't really know them. so yea. not socialising with them or anything. anti-social hor? OHWELL. haha. whatever.

2006 is coming. way too freaking fast. so sad that my friends are all not around. as in not the asses. my other friends. the ones i've known forever. can't spend new year together. OHWELL. chinese new year la. i hope.

i've got this HUGE ulcer. it's like DAMN pain la. i want to like slice it off or something. but that'll be even worse right? haha. TEH. oh well. but it's pain like shit la. been putting salt on it for the past two days and it hasn't gotten any smaller lo. sad shit man. sob sob. it's freaking pain la. i wonder if putting salt really helps. my mama says it does. she should know. so what to do? put salt lo. and die of ultimate pain. when the hell is it going to disappear? argh. i always get ulcers at the same spot. sad right? and i bit it. that's why it's even huger than before. sad man.

sushee is freaking smelly. haha. just thought i'd let everyone know. HAHA.

tommorrow's the POP. whee. how exciting. guest player. just sounds very cool. haha. like WHATTHEHELL. hope i can fit into jialin's black blouse. if not i die la. nothing to wear tommorrow. don't play la hor? then got perfect balance. maybe nelson won't turn up tommorrow. haha. i'm horrible. not that i have anythign against nelson. REALLY. just that four trombones is a bit weird. you know? haha. like very weird when assigning parts with 3 er, parts. so yea. but it'll be ok. i guess. hopefully. very fun le. never had POPs before. never even seen one before. suaku much. haha. that's how you spell it yea? haha. teh. OHWELL. looks cool. but i hate drills. STUPID. haha.

celia: girl! thanks for the art thingy. haha. yea. the giraffe is cute. not like your crab. that looks like a pinball. how sad is that? haha. you're missed too! you're coming back home! SOON! yay. haha. nope. i won't forget to go to school when school reopens. i'm not THAT idiotic. not like you. haha. crazy. hope you're still having fun on the other side of the earth. haha. i've got alot of pimples too. sad shit. haha. OHWELL. what to do. apply pimple cream lo. haha. diao. i wonder which brand is really effective hor? haha.

finished the puzzle. moving on to my sister's. it's this dog one. labrador retriever picture. the word labrador looks weird. yea. i think sushee dogs are cuter still. anyway. the whole picture is like white la. how to do sia. IDIOT. thank god it's only 300 pieces or i swear i'll die. totally absolutely die.

feel like playing sims. maybe i will. signing off then.

here's wishing everyone a VERY EXTREMELY HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance. oh. and i think romanesque is a very nice song. haha. suddenly can't get it out of my head. DANG.

make it new, but stay in the lines.
just let go, but keep it inside.
smile big for everyone,
even when you know what they’ve done.
they gave you the end but not where to start;
not how to build, how to tear it apart.

the angels sang over and over again__ 5:16 PM;

Saturday, December 24, 2005

it's christmas eve. i'm at home. going to my mama's friend's party later. yay. good food. but i don't really feel like going. feel like staying home and just laze around. have the whole freaking house to myself. qazim, ansley and lek ( i think) are going to the countdown. qazim asked me to go. second date. haha. it's not a date with those two extras please. anyway, i didn't want to go. not that my mama will let me go. she'll murder me if i even tried asking. so yea. let's not risk my life. oh well. i wonder what it'll be like. but isn't it a bit like, silly? counting down to christmas. well. one man's ____ is another man's poison. HAHA. i can't believe i forgot what it is. brian says it ALL the time. and i was like so prepared to type in AND THEN i totally forgot. damn retarded can? haha. DIAO. oh well. here's wishing all A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS and if you're going to the countdown HAVE LOADS OF FUN.

celia: i said i'll leave you my prom dress what. HELLO. haha. but i think it'll be too big for you la. haha. what else shall i leave you. oh ya. you can take back all those LESBO junk you wrote to me. HAHAHA. ok fine. those very nice letters you wrote to me. haha. it's in this very colourful box with farm animals on it. haha. yea. that one. do you want my BED? haha. my duvet? then you'll have a wonderful time sleeping. your FAVOURITE hobby. awesome eh? haha. DIAO. can't think of anything else right now to give you. so yea. haha. when i think of something else i'll pen it down ok? on my will. haha. eh. kuai dian hui lai ke yi ma? haha.

jialin: i recieved your card today man. I WANNA CRY. SOB SOB. haha. you know. life will be TOTALLY weird without you around man. can you believe it? 4 years. it just somehow seems a very long time to me. haha. i don't know why. crap. all those times we had together. haha. so sad la. YEA RIGHT. you sure will make it to sajc after the results one la. haha. you so BRIGHT. like as if you can't score 11 man. haha. i'm sure you're a bloody 6 pointer lo. then i'll be freaking jealous and kill you. OH. then you cannot go sajc le. DANG. haha. how is my dear native country, malaysia? haha. sounds weird. got internet there not? haha. just now i was reading your card then i remember something we did together know. THEN I FORGOT. shit. i wanted to blog about it lo. ARGH. haha. remember when we were first in band. it was me you and ansley. then at first we both just stick to ansley. then she popular ar, got so many friends. then it was just left you and me. haha. we two goondos. damn funny. haha. those good old days. ok. not very good la hor? since we were such lousy players. haha. OH WELL. anyway. man. i can never forget the many times i've spent with you. haha. we've been to the zoo together. twice! haha. track record. i've never been to the zoo with my other friends for more than once. we mostly became not friends on the way. haha. TEH. oh ya! i remember what it was. it was the thingy in wild wild wet. haha. remember that STUPID woman. who was so bloody impatient with us? then we wanted to complain about her service? THAT SLUT. then we were like freaking unprepared. AND OFF WE WENT! haha. screaming bloody murder. damn funny la. haha. we screamed like crazy farts. gosh. those were the days huh? anyway. have LOADS of fun in mjc man. sorry we won't be there with you. i got no choice ar. i dsa. they sue me man, if i leave. haha. just come visit us as often as possible. with qazim. then we can ALL oogle at cute guys together. WHEE! haha. ALWAYS believe in yourself k? don't ever say you're not good enough. haha. I LOVE YOU LOADS!!! my lesbo partner. haha dang. i got SO many. i am SO going to hell. HAHAHA.

so anyway. yea. i wannted go watch the naked chef. WHEE! haha. i think watching jamie oliver cook is like DAMN nice la. haha. i can totally taste it man. when i see him cooking on tv. everything just looks HEAVENLY. just like my husband josh duhamel. HOR ANSLEY? haha. DIAO. don't be jealous k ansley? next time i go out with him, i'll be sure to ask you along. but do remember not to drool too much. my darling will be weirded out by you. HAHAHA. i know you cannot resist him lo. ADMIT IT. ADMIT IT!!! haha. diao.

yea. off i go then. MERRY CHRISTMAS!

it was a beautiful let down
when i crashed and burned
when i found myself alone unknown and hurt
it was a beautiful let down
the day i knew
that all the riches this world had to offer me
would never do

the angels sang over and over again__ 6:00 PM;

Friday, December 23, 2005

confessions of 2 bimbo sluts:

i went shopping with qazim yesterday. it's a seriously memorable experience. haha. we did so many crazy things la. i can't quite remember most of them. i remember this though. we were at the crystal jade backery. then we paid the woman. guess what qazim said to her? have a nice day. LIKE WHAT?!?! haha. damn funny la. so freaking stupid lo. we totally couldn't stop laughing. then went round and round from one end of orchard to the other on his hunt for his adidas/le coq sportiff bag. he ended up buying the le coq sportiff one. one with black rim and red design. i chosed it for him. i mean, that was obviously the nicest colour. OH. there was the maroon one with black rim. i thought that was nicer. but qazim begged to differ. oh well. anything lo. it's not MY bag. i bought a bag too. a ripcurl bag. still thinking what i should do with it. we took neoprints. DAMN funny la. can like totally die laughing lo. and it was one of those unlimited time kind of things. we were SO bored doing the decorations la. we were like, what else is there to do. hmm. let's see. haha. like totaly idiots. then this bunch of ah bengs came and STARED at us doing the decorations. like what is their problem man. at least one of them had the decency to tell his friends to not stare at other people's 'work' la. thank god they went away. damn embarrassing la. our pictures. tried to look for birthday presents for each other but were unable to find anything. so now we're just going to shop for the presents ourselves. which actually makes more sense. haha.

QAZIM: don't you dare buy me something freaking CHEAP ok? i'm going to spend a relative lot of money on your birthday present lo. IF i am feeling nice. haha. when shall we go on our second date? oh ya. the countdown right? haha. damn romantic man. go CHANGE your blogskin. FASTER FASTER! haha. CONFESSIONS OF A BIMBO SLUT. haha. like WHATTHEHELL? haha. RETART! haha.

oh. we were at topshop. then qazim told me that he saw his primary school friend. then i looked up la. and i thought i saw my primary school. so i told him which one. then he was like, the one next to her is MY primary school friend. then we went into fits. like bloody idiots. so his friend came over and said hi. and he was like, "OH! hi! what you doing here?" DAMN fake la i tell you. haha. freaking fake. QAZIM: YOU ARE SO FAKE!! haha. whatthehell.

i think it's going to rain again. it's like very cold. i wish i could turn off the fan. but my father will MURDER me. then he'll go on and on about how the computer needs to cool down. the moniter. or something. i so don't know my computer parts. haha.

i think my tagboard is not working or something. which totally pisses me off. like how many times do i have to fix my tagboard man. ARGH. so i shall just type my messages here then. in case my tagboard REALLY isn't working.

julie: haha. tsunami? haha. DIAO. okie. i'll cya tuesday la. haha. i kind of like forgot what you wrote. haha. retarded. we should flood each other's tagboards most often. haha. SILLY.

wenmin: haha. HELLO! haha. i shall link you then. haha.

jiawei: YEP! ansley is and ABSOLUTE idiot. damn embarrassing sia. we should embarrass her in front of everyone one more often. haha. evil.

ansley: IDIOT!! hek hek hek. so funny. hahahaha.

qazim: you tagged my blog right? haha. DIAO.

who else tagged my tagboard? hmm. sian. everytime the phone rings and is answered, the LOCAL CONNECTION IS UNPLUGGED. that's what the notice thingy says. haha.

oh well. that's it for today i guess. it's 1++ days to christmas. WHEE! haha. like as if i even celebrate christmas. i don't eat turkey for one. haha. but i don't even have a christmas tree. which is quite sad la. i want one. waiting for my aunt to give me hers. and we don't exchange presents. so sad. i want presents. haha. retard. but oh well. christmas is still fun all the same. haha.

CELIA: so long never talk to you le. sadness. recieve my card already not? making my damn worried man. haha. COME HOME SOON, darling. haha. GROSS.

oh. i think this picture is so funny. trust xingwen and i to look so silly. haha.

though i've tried, i've fallen...
i have sunk so low
i messed up
better i should know
so don't come round here
and tell me i told you so...

the angels sang over and over again__ 1:24 PM;

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

so we ended up NOT watching king kong. which TOTALLY pissed me off. ok la. not pissed. but it kind of like spoilt my mood for the rest of the day. though i did try to keep it up. so we ended up walking around like pointless idiots. damn retarded la. couldn't take it in the end and went down to mos burger to sit and chat. so stupid. talk about all sorts of stupid things. which i totally can't remember. i remember telling them that i ate a prawn though. STUPID. haha. then i told ansley she could have my storybooks, brian could have what money i had in my piggybank. i forgot what i gave jialin. hmm. couldn't think of what to give royce. do you want my bags? haha. TEH. i remember something that was damn funny too. brian was buying his chewy a ENGAGEMENT RING ( no la. just something) and then we were suggesting he go tiffany and co. then ansley was saying the people there would open the door for you. then she asked where ar? paragon ar? then i said NO. PLEASE. TAKA. then jiawei laughed. and he said paragon also have. OH! they're called automatic doors. DAMN funny la. haha. stupid ansley. HAHAHA.

the version of i don't wanna be by gavin degraw sounds weird. like very.. gross. hmm.

gotta run. next time then.

oh, this is the start of something good
don't you agree?
i haven't felt like this in so many moons
you know what I mean?
and we can build through this destruction
as we are standing on our feet

the angels sang over and over again__ 1:32 PM;

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

you know? sometimes when people keep saying things and you don't want them to say it. but slowly you start to believe what the say? STUPID. that's what it is.

suppose to be meeting my friends later. to watch king kong. i watched the really old one. but i can't seem to remember much about it. i only have a vague impression of the woman screaming. whereas, everyone seems to remember king kong looking very fake and very much like a toy. hmmm. my memory is weird.

don't have much money to spend. quite sad. oh ya. we're watching in tampines mall. losers. haha. i want to watch in like shaw house or something. but lek has something on later in the evening. so like that lo. can't go too far i suppose. will reblog later and tell the whole world about king kong.

i'm getting into this habit of blogging too many times a day. so stupid. haha. but oh well going to meet ansley early for lunch. she's wandering the streets of town right now.

watched las vegas, the finale, yesterday. it was so sad la. i can't stand mary. truth be told. but mary likes danny. and danny likes mary. they almost got married. haha. sounds funny. anyway, they didn't la. so now mary is with this new guy. jake i think? can't really understand what they were saying. mary and 'jake' are going away for the whole summer. so before she went off she wanted to say bye to danny or something. but she couldn't find him. so sadly, she had to leave. but stupid danny (who is the oh-so-heavenly josh duhamel) was watching her on the surveillance camera. IDIOT. that's his job la. security and all. then there's sam. who is a girl, unlike what brian thought. so sam's husband wants to buy over the casino. or something. there are 4 people in total la. who want to buy the casino. so the employees are all worried they'll lose their jobs. then sam don't want them to lose their jobs because "the montecito is to closest i've had to a home; they are the closest i've had to a family" so she loves them and all and she told her husband she'll do anything if something something something. i didn't quite catch what she said. haha. stupid. so she quit her job and went off with her husband. whom she refused to acknowledge as her husband. weird. then there's nessa. whose whole story is freaking confusing. but anyway, she's going to get kidnapped la. basically. then she don't want to listen to ed. who's her adopted father. and the guy who runs the montecito la. so she's on a flight to god-knows-where with delinda. ed's daughter. real daughter i think. SO confusing. anyway. delinda has the iq of a genius but she's like a freaking bimbo. she attaches herself to all the celebrities who come by the montecito every week. i think delinda is damn funny. so yea. pretty much sums it all for the season finale of las vegas. oh. danny's father died. poor thing poor thing. now he has no more family. OH WELL. poor danny.

they're starting a new show. looks nice. grey's anatomy. but it's so late la. irritating sia. feel like watching it though. scrubs was quite sad too. haha. don't know why jd just can't seem to get over elliot. poor thing poor thing. haha. oh well. what's up with sad shows man.

oh. i think the new 9 o'clock show is nice. haha. though i've only watched 1 episode. but seems nice. zhang yaodong is so cute. i think he'll be so cute with fiona xie. which is going to happen la. in the end. right? ya. i think so. that's what is shown in the song thingy.

when there ain't nowhere you can go
running away from pain
when you've been victimized
tales from another broken home

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:46 AM;

Monday, December 19, 2005

i can't believe i'm blogging again. but i was just suddenly filled with sadness. like seriously. i don't know why. and i think it's quite retarded. but i just was.

please don't come up with such feeble excuses.
please don't say things that aren't true.
please don't try to justify what has already gone all wrong.

is trying that hard?

after all this time
i never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but i couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that i loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when i let you go

the angels sang over and over again__ 7:13 PM;

yilin's back from her tour round europe. i'm so jealous i want to kill her. haha. a hell lot of good that will do. oh well. haha. i SWEAR i'm going somewhere next year. one way or another. i will. I WILL.

xingwen smsed me early in the morning to tell me about his weird dream. which was SERIOUSLY weird. it's like HUH? haha. very funny. then he asked me if i wanted to go out. unfortunately, we can't. because no one else wants to go out. not even our sugar daddy. how sad. haha. oh well. but it's such a hot day. er. out of point. haha. feel like blading. so freaking long never blade already. oh! just realised that this would be the second post of the day. since i posted one about like 12 hours ago. haha. oh well.

feel like watching lotr. again. haha. the two towers this time. watch the special extended version. ooh. haha. whatever. but apparently, there's something wrong with the cd. AHHHH. i hope it's just xingwen's dvd player. please please please let it be so. if not i'll be so sad. then i'll have to buy a new one. i'll be broke! like as if i'm not broke already. how very sad.

it's only like 2 weeks till school reopens. sigh. i wish the holidays were longer. how sad. but it's quite exciting to start school. i guess. but i still wish the holidays were longer.

oh ya. i'm playing at the twe pop thingy. i think. that's what shaun called it. whee. how exciting. i hope got instrument though. i so do not want to use the besson. how sad is that. haha. i wonder what it'll be like. haha. so exciting!! i'll be playing with my beloved bones again. whee whee. i wonder if shaun will let me have my b50. oh well. shouldn't be such a bitch and demand for it hor? after all, i am alumni. oh well.

a bit sian to colour my post today. haha. i've decided to always end off with a song. a part of a song at least. haha. don't know why. but just feel like it. this song doesn't really make sense. but i think it's cool. ooh! yilin and xingwen's windows are blinking orange in unison. wonderful! haha. whatever. bimbo. haha. i've got 2 very cool songs. don't know which one to use. oh well. the one that doesn't make sense then. haha.

oh ya. i miss celia. I MISS YOU CELIA. my lesbo partner. haha. whatever.

violins, into this ashtray life
violins, the butt of your sick joke
violins, I'm trying hard to let you go
violins

the angels sang over and over again__ 1:42 PM;

i was reading my old post? about the sfw? then i stumbled upon the post that i wrote about it. it was very funny. slightly insulting, but very funny. then i remembered that one time i really chatted with you on msn. when you pour out all your woes on me about a certain someone. then i got disconnected and i decided to be nice and sent you a cheer a message. we were sort of friends weren't we?

WHAT ABOUT NOW? dude. you scared me. seriously. i really didn't know what to say. and that really like shocked me? now i don't know how i would ever approach you again. or if i even want to. gee. you really really really shocked me.

was watching lotr just now. the first movie. lotr is a really saddening show. watching it again just makes it so much worse. i wanted to cry when boromir died? damn sad la. poor thing sia. he did so.. sadly. haha. whatthehell. just don't know the word for it. and all he could think about in the last moment was "the little ones" and how the glory of gondor must be restored.

wow. what a book. what a movie. i think lotr is truly amazing? my favourite movie of all time. i think elijah wood makes a VERY good frodo baggins. i don't know why. but he just totally fits the character. and he does it so well. even though frodo is kind of irritating every now and then. like HELLO? ever heard of fighting back? or running away at least. thank god he's freaking blessed huh? but he IS the main character after all. main characters don't die. they just don't. they have to live on happily ever after. unless they are boromir of cause. but he wasn't really a main character, was he?

i think pippin is so cute. billy boyd yea? both the actor and the character are so cute. haha. i think pippin is SO silly. i think i can like totally relate to him or something. haha. i think all the asses can. IN FACT, i think he's JUST like qazim. my dear friend qazim. haha. same kind one. HAHAHAHA.

you know the last part of the fellowship of the ring? where frodo sails off in the boat? and sam was like swimming after him. it was kind of.. funny. i don't know why. haha.

frodo: " i'm going to mordor. alone."
sam: " yes you are. and i am coming with you."

HUH? haha. teh teh teh. i think sam doesn't really understand english. haha. like WHATTHEHELL. and then there's the part where he goes, ""don't you leave him, samwise gamgee" and i am not going to." it's just so. like, touching? haha. i don't know the word for it. oh well. i think frodo is gay? but sadly, sam is PERFECTLY straight and went on to marry whats-her-name in the end. poor frodo. haha. oh well.

i was watching the finale of rainbow connection with my sister that day. even though we both hate jeanette aw. it was quite funny really. haha. anyway, i was explaining to her how xiaoqian has been like totally a loser in the field of love and how she should just be lesbian. my sister was like, WHATTHEHELL. you mean if no guy ever loves you, you'll be lesbian. i mean, like what's wrong with that? not that i AM lesbian la. but she said that if i ever brought home a girl and told her that was my girlfriend, she'll slap me left right up down and centre. i think. haha. how hilarious. but seriously, i'm NOT lesbian. haha. teh teh teh.

dang. it's past 12. i broke my record of writing an entry everyday. oh well. one day in between isn't that bad is it? haha. whatever.

i was at this birthday party today. for a 1 year old. LIKE HELLO. does anyone else see the idioticness in this other than me. firstly, the baby doesn't even like KNOW it's her birthday. secondly, the games organized don't even INVOVLE the birthday girl. and. well. i can't think of anything else other than the fact the kid doesn't even know that everything going on has got to do with her only. no offence to her parents. they're really good people, i love them and their cooking. but i really hated my time there. thank god for good food. in the end, my mother allowed me to return to the car, be anti-social and read my storybook. which i really don't care. since i'm not going to see those people for a long time to come. i hope. please don't invite us over for new year or something. PLEASE. though i really love her cooking. hmm. oh well. haha.

i think elvish is cool. feel like learning it. haha. WHATEVER.

May it be an evening star
shines down upon you
may it be when darkness falls
your heart will be true
you walk a lonely road
how far you are from home

you know. i know this sounds vindictive and all, but i think you deserve it. now you know what it feels like to lose your best friend. friends.

the angels sang over and over again__ 12:12 AM;

Saturday, December 17, 2005

so here i am. second post of the day. was reading my old entries yesterday. i realised that i NEVER blogged about anything else. other than band. that was what i am. a band geek. no life outside band. haha. not that it's a bad thing. just pointing it out. haha. how hilarious. oh well.

thinking if i should just install roller coaster tycoon and play. still can't find the worms cd. DANG.

was fixing the puzzle with lek and xingwen yesterday. haha. pretty unsuccessful. fixed a few parts here and there. not like attached onto the border. more like those that you piece together. so now we have a few parts. which is relatively retarded. because i can't fix it onto the puzzle itself. haha. retarded.

don't you think that sad songs are just nicer to listen to? haha. i mean. usually sad songs are nicer. i don't know why, but it just is. haha. WHATTHEHELL.

fixed my tagboard. but it still seems to have problem. i don't understand what is wrong with that stupid thing. oh well. changed my skin after all. even though i was too lazy to do so. i like my new skin. really really nice. haha. shall go look at new skins. just for fun. haha. retarded.

that's about it really. nothing much to talk about today. guess today shall just be a boring and uneventful day then.

the angels sang over and over again__ 3:04 PM;

listening to deep and meaningless by rooster right now. it's such a sad song. a FREAKING sad song actually. sob sob. haha. how silly.

shit. my sister out of the toilet. i gotta go then. haha. STUPID. maybe i'll blog again when i use the computer downstairs. later then.

if you call me today
i'll say that i'm fine
but I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
its just a lie
you knew what you had
you still walked away leaving me in this mess
my love for you is deep and meaningless

the angels sang over and over again__ 2:35 PM;

Friday, December 16, 2005

will i ever get what i want. ever?

i am extremely bored. EXTREMELY EXTREMELY bored. i'm like typing in white. can't really see what i'm typing. hope i'm not typing anything wrongly. haha. this is so retarded.

today is the posting results thingy. whee. like how does that even concern me. haha. but oh well. happiness to those people who got into where they wanted to go.

LEK: start planning your SEX CLUB k? haha. the various administration jobs can ask me for help. i got experience. haha. must go check out which hotels are the cheapest and stuff like that. start planning for your future man. HAHAHA. and remember. ALWAYS PRACTICE SAFE SEX.

it's very hot. i feel like sleeping. but it's kind of too hot to sleep. horrible horrible weather. i feel like doing something. but there's like absolutely nothing to do. so i have to resort to blogging. oh well. haha. trying to recover from my excitement of yesterday's visit to the zoo. and my tired legs of course.

QAZIM: it's sheba. singular. not shebas and shebes. haha. mi toh tuck. haha. sounds funny. cannot just think about having fun la, psycho. still have to study yea? haha. if not later you fail ALL your exams ar. haha. do remember to come drop by sajc and we shall look at _______ together. haha. you know what i mean yea? haha. you in mi toh tuck also must remember hor. ALWAYS PRACTICE SAFE SEX. haha.

this colour thing is fun. haha. i'll have a VERY VERY colourful entry. haha. what the hell. i feel like playing worms. but i don't know where the cd is. i hope it's not lost or anything. really love that game. getting relatively sick of sims. i so need to play games. don't know why but i can't seem to play the games on websites. so irritating la. so i have like ABSOLUTELY nothing to do. DANG.

feel like changing my blogskin. but lazy to search for new ones. but i just changed my blogskin hor. how pointless. haha. oh well. i think i'll go then.

the angels sang over and over again__ 1:17 PM;

Thursday, December 15, 2005

once again, i'm reaching for something that i cannot grab hold of.

what am i? pathetic? WAKE UP YI MEI. WAKE UP.

i think it must be quite amusing when other people see me get emotional. cause i'm usually the AAAAHHHHH person or the HAHAHAHAHAHA person. oh well. sometimes, i wonder if i'm the only normal person in my gang. then. oh ya. there's jialin. haha. no offense to the asses la. oops. haha.

went to the zoo today. whee. DAMN FUN la i tell you. DAMN TIRING also. my legs HURT. like crap shit.

did ALOT of crazy things. like prance around with xingwen. thinking we were dancing or something. haha. that was SO silly. haha. where did that come from? haha. crazy idiots. woke up so early la. it was still dark when i left home. then i was like freaked out. cause it was so dark. and it's been a long time since i walked out from my home to the bus stop already. then i didn't dare to wait at the 40 bus stop. cause it's like BLOODY secluded. scared ar. so i walked all the way out lo. took 14 down to tanah merah. met xingwen and ansley then went down to bedok to meet brian. who had a stomach ache and was shitting. i think. stupid idiot. haha. the train ride there was FREAKING long and tiring. cause we had to stand. the morning rush and all. finally got there. then had to wait for royce and joyce. haha. how cute. royce and her sister. then they came and we hopped on. WHEE. haha. got to the zoo. complained about the price. dug in our wallets for money. haha. how pathetic. then we went in. the first place we went was like the DFS shop. how stupid. haha. then we moved on. we walked around in circles alot i think. haha. then went to watch the wonders of the wild show. there was this tribal thing. it was entertaining really. then he was like looking for somebody to shoot the arrow thingy? xingwen and i were SO freaked out that we would be the unlucky ones la. haha. thank god he went up. then when he was leaving, he decided to BOO us. as in not boo la. shouted his tribal thingy. i was shocked. how dumb. haha. he's a zookeeper right? hmm. haha. wondering if he's really tribal. well.

so. moving on. i kind of like forgot where we walked to. just remember walking alot. in circles. back and forth. alot. so stupid. haha. lek actually went into the fragile forest. SHIT. now he doesn't need to return me the money he owes me. can we pretend i never said that? haha. oh well. xingwen said i looked like a giraffe. big ass and long legs. fine. haha. then we started measuring our legs in front of the giraffes. which was like SO stupid. haha. the giraffes must be like WHAT?!?! haha. how VERY us. oh. i remember the elephant thingy. we were actually sitting there for the show to start. then we came to the conclusion that we were all to hungry and needed to eat like DESPERATELY. haha. so we moved on. did you know that elephants eat 3/4 of their lives? sounds like somebody. did you know that elephants don't like chili? sounds like somebody too. haha. took stupid random unglam pictures. i remember the tiger one. SO ugly la. gosh. haha. how freaking embarrassing. thank god nobody saw us. i think. haha. we kept getting distracted on our quest to discover the animals in the zoo. by benches. haha. we're such lazy bums who can't walk long distances. haha. joyce was like bouncing around. so lively la. makes me feel so old. and that's like WHOA. i'm only 16 man. haha. SHIT.

DID YOU KNOW? haha. this is so irritating. anyway. the white tigers in the zoo? all 3 of time. this guy and 2 girls. i remember one of the girls was winnie. ANYWAY. they were born on the 27th of september 1999. wow. haha. AND. this elephant? forgot the name. it died at 54 on the 27th of september 1999. ooh. haha. the dying thing is quite sad BUT the coincidence is quite cool. haha. WHATEVER.

went to the petting zoo. sounds wrong. anyway. sat and stared at this stupid donkey. which was pregnant. apparently. i REALLY wanted it to give birth there and then on the spot. but it didn't. darn. haha. oh well. the petting zoo was SERIOUSLY smelly. oh. and the chicken thingy? the incubator thing ar. the chicken display. it was so retarded la. i was like looking at the eggs and wondering why the colour so light one. then i saw lines on the eggs. the were plastic eggs. like HUH? why. no more eggs ar. then xingwen said something to do with the bird flu which i didn't quite catch. oh well.

i can type without looking at the keyboard. ooh. haha. i'm sure alot of people can too. oh well.

i'm looking at the zoo map to try to remember what we did. haha. still can't really remember. oh well. i remember the baboons though. and their VERY VERY VERY red butts. it's like... gross. haha. sorry. but it seriously is. oh. i thought that sheba was VERY VERY fat. but xingwen says it's her fur. sheba is the female polar bear.

that's as far as i can remember i think. went to the airport to send celia off. gonna miss her i reckon. haha. especially when i'm bored. then got nobody to crap with. oh well. at least she is going somewhere. still thinking if i should go to auckland with my dad. was telling xingwen about planes. haha. so funny. megatops, jubilees, triple 7s and the airbus a380. haha. he thought there was something worse than economy class. then we were trying to imagine what it would be like. haha. how very silly. oh. and do you think air stewardess are allowed to be fat? and if they became fat along the way, do they get fired? haha. teh. we were chatting about the most stupid things at burger king. then we were sharing with each other what we did on days when we had no outings. and we came to the conclusion that i had no life. cause all i do is sleep. haha. WHATEVER. haha.

yea. that's about it really. i'm very sleep. and this has been a very long post.

oh yea. we were stuck on the train for awhile. me and ansley were discussing what we were gonna say to the various people in case we died on the train. SILLY. haha. but a truly entertaining discussion. haha.

i just want to tell you that i like you. still.

the angels sang over and over again__ 10:23 PM;

Sunday, December 11, 2005

ooh. i've got 134 post. haha. what the hell. no biggie i know. but seems quite a lot to me. hmm. haha.

it's weird to have so many seniors. 5. that's like whoa. i never really had seniors. no offence to zhijian, daryl or selvam. zhijian and daryl were sought of like gone by the time we joined main band. so they weren't really seniors. selvam, is more like a batch mate. you know? kind of like my best friend in the section. along with shaun. so i never really looked at him like a senior. not that i didn't respect him or anything. he was after all our SL. i don't know how to put it. it's just like that. now. in sajc, i have 5 seniors. whoa. haha. it's fun having seniors. haha. what the hell. it's kind of like, i'm used to being the oldest around in the band. not technically the oldest. but the oldest batch yea? then in sajc, we're the juniors. haha. a bit weird. oh well. shall just have to get use to it. it'll be fun at least.

holidays are almost coming to an end. how sad. and i am STILL stuck in Singapore. sigh. my dad asked if i wanted to follow him to auckland. for 2 days. whee. how exciting. and when i leave i have to take the cab to the airport, check in, get on the plane and go home by myself. quite exciting really. but i don't really want to be in a cab in a foreign land roaming around. but i do SO want to go overseas. argh.

i want to be the first to wish you, my friend. haha

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY BRIAN!!! WHEE!

in a day++ you can finally watch nc16 shows legally. haha. finally. oh well. don't know if you even read my blog anymore.

shall go. ciao.

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:59 PM;

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

i was thinking of something just now. but i forgot. shit.

went for sajc band today. according to xingwen, i was too dao when i was introducing myself. oops. now everyone must think i hate them. shit. oh well. sorry. it's just the way i speak i guess. damn. should work on my smiley face huh? nah. that would be weird. played this jazz piece. it's very nice. a WHOLE DAMN LOAD of glisses. very very fun. but a tad hard la. especially the trombone feature part. but it got ok after awhile. then there was the rondo song. which was tremendously easy. because the song was basically us repeating the same parts over and over again. in between them were seriously long waits. there was a semi-quaver part though. that was slightly tough. i can't tongue very well. damn. then we went on for sectionals. fantasy variations. VERY nice song. but FREAKING hard. although it got ok after awhile. haha. duh. practice. our parts were mildly weird. and i think i kept pitching wrongly. oops. damn. now they must think i suck. sobs. and julius kept asking me to play louder. which i know i should have been. but a bit cannot. guess because so long never play already. excuses. haha. fine. the next time i go back there and when we play fantasy variations, i'm gonna play so loud they'll have to tell me to shut up. moses is very funny. haha. he conducts relatively bitchily. not bad kind of bitch know. funny. haha. and he said i was short. WHAT? fine. actually, he asked what was my height. "168." "chey. so short. i thought you 170+" ok. insult. haha. i guess that means he thought i was tall but turns out i'm short. huh. oh well. sajc band is fun. whee. kind of can't wait for the next practice. oh ya! i'm suppose to read xingwen's blog. haha.

bye then. whee. the colour thing is quite fun. haha.

oh. i forgot to shout out.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QI YA!!!

that's how you spell your name right? aiya. like as if you'll read my blog. haha. happy birthday anyway.

the angels sang over and over again__ 8:46 PM;

Monday, December 05, 2005

you know. i thought people are suppose to look good in natural shots.

SO WHY DON'T I?!?!

ugliness surrounds me.

the angels sang over and over again__ 8:54 PM;

Sunday, December 04, 2005

i want to go overseas. argh. my sister's in poly. so our holidays don't coincide. as a result, she can't go anywhere with me. except for the weekends. yay. so now i have to go overseas with my aunt. and my mama. maybe. but my mama wants to go to all these random chinese countries. it's not that i have anything against these places, i'm just not exactly interested ok? so like, can we go somewhere most exciting? like new zealand? but the package tours are too expensive. dang. i may after all be stuck in singapore again. just like last year. i live a very sad sad life. dang.

want to go shopping. going down to lau pa sat to support twe later. what a very weird and random place they are playing at. oh well. my sister wants her laptop back. ok then. gotta run. till the next time then.

the angels sang over and over again__ 2:20 PM;