just let me hear the angels sing.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

if it works out between them, will it work out between us?

i need an excuse to go out with you again.

too strong for too long (and i can't be without you baby)
and i'll be waiting up until you get home (cause i can't sleep without you baby)
anybody who's ever loved, you know just what I feel
too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it
call the radio if you just can't be without your baby

the angels sang over and over again__ 10:26 PM;

Sunday, February 26, 2006

went for danceworks yesterday. was cool. just love watching reza dance. it's going to stink like hell not being able to watch reza dance anymore. it's like, been watching him for the past 3 years. so ya. he's such a good dancer after all. very wasted that he can't continue in sajc.

the holidays are starting in like 2 weeks. which is damn quick. i can't believe that the first term is already over. it totally feels like i just entered sajc not too long ago. but lo and behold, it's the last studying week of term 1. oh man. time is passing way too quickly for comfort.

i may be starting to believe what i've heard. i still don't know.

just the thought makes me smile. thanks loads.

the angels sang over and over again__ 5:44 PM;

Thursday, February 23, 2006

i have a physics test tommorrow. how sickening is that. i'm contemplating if i should study for it. my file is in front of me right now. with the notes and all. but i don't know if i should study. i'm having too much fun playing solitaire with nicholas. HAHA. we're 2 no life retards.

I GOT MY NEW SPECS! i love them. they are SO FUNKAY. haha. love it love it love it. i'm loving it. haha. stupid. but ya. i think it's damn nice. though it's quite small. then i can see alot of unclear visions from above. haha. which is quite retarded la. but i love my FUNKAY new MATTISH specs. haha. so fun. though i look EXTREMELY fierce when i don't smile. oh well. haha. love it. haha.

ya. i don't really know what to blog about. so stupid. haha. hope alicia goes to school tommorrow. if not i won't have my laughing partner for pe. haha. fell down during pe that day. so embarrassing. have i already blogged about that? OH. haha. yes i have. how stupid. yea. well.

this week so far has been pretty good la. though yesterday was quite horrible. but ya. not a bad week. passed pretty quickly. seriously. yea. tommorrow's already friday. then it's going to be the weekends. then one more week of school before second orientation. then march holidays. the year has passed SO quickly come to think of it. crap.

ansley and i made our very important decision today on what h1 subject to take. we're switching back to geography. basically it was because we were afraid we wouldn't be able to handle lit. we have no background on lit. at least i know what's going on in geog. and ansley knows half of what is going on. so ya. hope we'll fare better doing geog. oh well. as a result, we're not attending any of our lit classes anymore. yay. no need to stay back late on tuesday and thursday next week.

and i'm so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
so done with wishing you was still here
said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
so why can't i turn off the radio?

the angels sang over and over again__ 8:55 PM;

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

i'm afraid of every move i make. unsure.
i'm afriad that things would turn out like my biggest nightmare.

it's already been a day. ansley, i win. be ready to buy me a drink.

the angels sang over and over again__ 8:37 PM;

Monday, February 20, 2006

missed my bus this morning. so ended up late at madarin gardens. then ansley and i were wondering if we should take cab/go home/take 31 and be late. decided to take cab. but there was this sucker, who stood in front of us. he got a cab. pig la. like hello. we were standing there for so long already. then now you come and happily stand in front of us and hail the cab we wanted. PIG. managed to get a cab in the end. it cost us 8 bucks please. so expensive. haha. and ansley forgot to bring her money. so we were left with 2 bucks between us for the rest of the day. HAHA. retards. lynn lent us money in the end. anisha wanted us to pay 2 bucks for maths notes. then we told her we were broke. but she didn't believe us. in the end she did la. so ya. haha. so funny.

had pe today? pe today was damn fun. laughed and laughed and laughed with alicia again. haha. this time we were more useful. even though alicia let a couple of goals in. haha. i let one in. so retarded. i think we're better at defending. not goalkeeping. there is a difference ok. haha. and our defence was pretty good. whee whee. haha. we didn't win though. but it was a good game. damn fun. haha. i got whacked. no bruise though. i hope. i got one last friday. haha. i whacked alicia. oops. haha. and i fell down. HOW FREAKING UNGLAM. haha. i slipped la. stepped on emily's stick and slipped. haha. so retarded. we played in the basketball court. so we were like playing in front of everyone. how SUPER embarrasing. haha. i can't wait to play floorball again. haha.

went out with celia and some people. HAHA. some people is so, not nice. but ya. some people. haha. YAY. haha. so happy that i did. yay. yay. yay. yay. HAHA. i'm so retarded.

one more time anyone?

i spent a lifetime searching
for what i thought i'd found
but you're just the same
it's still a losing game
i'm a face out of the crowd

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:03 PM;

Sunday, February 19, 2006

i hate having my eyes checked. seriously. i really don't know sometimes which side is clearer. so i just say, looks the same. like today. he told me to see whether the thingy was clearer or if my original specs was clearer. i changed between them so many times i think the guy thinks i'm stupid. and can't see properly. but in the end, he figured that my degree is still the same. less in fact. which is freaking weird.

now. i've got new specs. yay. it's black. relatively chunky plastic specs. i like... haha. i think i look quite mattish. haha. seriously. and my mama says it makes me look very fierce. like as if i don't look fierce enough. shall go back this saturday and scare my juniors. as in the sec 1s. haha. EVIL. can't wait to collect my new specs on wednesday. whee whee.

today was quite an uneventful day. slept in till like 12. due to the fact i slept around 2:30 am last night? i don't know why. lately i can't seem to sleep every night. oh well. i think i'm going to force myself to sleep at 10 later. haha. so primary school. so anyway, woke up and bathed. waited for my sister to bathe sushee. went out for lunch at ben's place. i think? they sell english pies. very nice. they have it at parkway parade giant too. go try it. yummy. then came home. waited awhile then got into the car with sushee to ecp. walk walk walk then ate dinner. do you know they have a cable ski park at ecp? damn cool. would love to try it. but will probably TOTALLY embarrass myself. ohwell.

i want to go ecp with you. but i think it would be kind of weird. i just want to go SOMEWHERE with you.

PIG. i knew you weren't a decent person. PIG.

the fire fades away
most of everyday
is full of tired excuses
but it's to hard to say
i wish it were simple
but we give up easily
you're close enough to see that
you're the other side of the world to me

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:39 PM;

so. !smash'd. it was ok. i guess. haha. wasn't in the mood la. and the music was way too loud. i think i'm a little deaf already. and my insides really hurt. each time the bass BOOMED and each time the guitar went ZWANG. or whatever. but ya. saw alot of old friends. selvam's joining alumni. WHEE. haha.

this er, 3 dudes? i can't really remember. they were rapping. bla bla bla bla bla j-e-a-l-o-u-s bla bla bla. then i was thinking, hmm. j-e-a? qazim decided to be helpful and went, jealous. HAHA. so stupid la. didn't really catch it. haha. REALLY. not creating excuses. mind wasn't really in the performance. but this freaky z guy was nice. haha. his rap about the parents is so damn funny. i think he's performance was the best. then there was ryan. damn cool. as usual. haha. i think the mike needs to be cleaned. thoroughly.

went back to twe today. missed my juniors. as in, the sec 1s? i missed them as in, they went home before i got there. DANG. haha. but oh well. bought them chocolates. all of them. so strange ar. receiving chocolates from someone you don't even know. how strange. haha. but it was fun playing with twe. omens of love is a DAMN nice song. PLEASE MAKE IT AN ALUMNI PIECE? haha. bitch.

they're showing catch me if you can later. 645. yay. can't wait. haha. i watched it before? but it's damn nice. want to watch it again. frank ya? his name? i think he damn poor thing lo. he only did all this because his parents were getting a divorce. damn poor thing la. sigh. at least he's doing good now. haha. WATCH CATCH ME IF YOU CAN. you'll love it. for sure.

my wrist hurts. i think it's my wrist anyway. haha. stupid. don't know why. i think i slept on it.

i got to stop letting you control my feelings.

love is the answer,
at least for most of the questions in my heart
like why are we here? and where do we go?
and how come it's so hard?
it's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
i'll tell you one thing its always better when we're together

the angels sang over and over again__ 12:39 AM;

Friday, February 17, 2006

i found this song that i heard on radio last year and really liked. i heard it during the o's mugging period. i still remember hearing it. it's a very nice song. but i couldn't catch the title. yesterday, on radio, the deejay was introducing a new song which they wanted listeners to rate. as i listened to this new song, i suddenly thought of the song that i like last year. and OHMYGOD. i heard the familiar chorus. haha. so happy. it's a really nice song. got none by robert post.

i think it's freaking retarded when people call your house phone then ask you where you are. you think? it happened to xingwen yesterday and me too. my mama called me just now and asked me, you home already? YOU THINK?

going back to temasek tomorrow. gotta settle the thingy with zat. so exciting. i can't wait to start the project rolling. whee whee. how exciting. but i think it'll be kind of time consuming. OHWELL.

i didn't realise that !smashed was tomorrow. haha. how spastic. and i haven't bought tickets. ansley said she's got them booked already. ok then. hope it'll be good. hmm. suddenly don't feel like going. sian.

can't wait to start alumni practice either. so exciting. haha. play exciting songs with all these er, exciting people. haha. i hope selvam is going. it's been so long since i last saw him. or played with him. oh. i saw him at twe's pop. haha. but that's still quite along right? haha.

i wish for another such day.

well a kiss might be just a kiss to you
but baby it meant something to me
and a night to remember might be
just a monday in september
baby it meant something to me

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:56 PM;

Thursday, February 16, 2006

the past week has been crazy. especially tuesday. which was valentines day, celia's birthday and also international friendship day. but then again. it's international friendship week. haha. so ya. STUPID. haha.

spent the first half of valentines/celia's day watching i not stupid 2 with celia and some people. haha. DAMN funny. which is quite psychotic. cause it's suppose to be a touching movie. it was la. made us all cry. especially celia. aiyo. malu only. haha. but it was like damn funny. because of the people i was sitting next to. SO ANTI-CLIMATIC PLEASE. i laughed during the caning part. retard. haha. after that, hung around at paragon then went to taka then went and met up with the rest of the gang.

REUNION. haha. it rocked. to see all those familiar faces again. jialin, royce, lek. er. ya. HAHA. that's about it. since i see xingwen and ansley almost everyday. seen quite a bit of qazim and celia lately. even though didn't see them, have chatted with them. seeing the others was great. just yakking the night away. was great. really. qazim's friends came along too. haha. very funny really.

CELIA: hottaye. haha. aiyo you. just happily post that thingy on your blog. thank god not many people i know read your blog. as in bandits. haha. no. i didn't realise. haha. i didn't read once through before giving it to you. haha. but oh well. thanks for letting me know la. haha. THANKS for being SUPER proud of me. haha. so kuku. i didn't really work that hard la. haha. teamwork also la. on the part of twe. haha. i LOVE you LOADS too! haha. we'll stay friends ALWAYS and ALWAYS and ALWAYS and ALWAYs yea? haha. hope you had a great day. your day! haha. best of luck with HIM la. things aren't that bad la. just. a bit slow sometimes. seemingly hopeless. but haha. still got hope. DON'T GIVE UP HOPE YEA? have faith. always. haha. either way round, i'm here! can yang ni. haha. when i do have money to yang myself in the first place la. haha. STUPID. yup. the last sentence sounds wrong. haha. i'm waiting for my purple book, sweetheart. haha. FASTER FASTER! haha.

ANSLEY: decided to shout out to you. don't know why also. haha. thanks yea? for staying on in sajc with me. if not i sure die. since my OTHER best friend (wink wink) wants to transfer out. HAHAHA. though i don't seem to be there lately, caught up with other stuff like HIM and CELIA, i want you to know i AM always here la. sorry if i haven't paid you enough attention yea? haha. I STILL LOVE YOU LOADS, my don't know number what LESBO PARTNER. haha. stupid sia. how how? take lit or geog? haha. BALLOONS. stupid. haha. oh well. haha. cya in school tomorrow! haha.

QAZIM: you ding dong. happy already la. haha. you don't fret so much about THOSE stuff la. just be happy. i lend you some of my happiness want? haha. be happy with me. it'll be fun. haha. when you do have any problems, do come to me yea? you know i'll listen. haha. you're friends are funny. haha. and i'm TOUCHED. haha. by what hilmi said. haha. thanks la. haha. got flu? let's go buy medicine together. can share the price. HAHA. auntie. haha. but ya. i think you passed it to me or something. you get well soon la. don't be so down and out. very seldom do you see qazim like that. haha. different ar. not bubbly. not fun. haha. you take care yea? cya again soon! go crystal jade bakery and tell the woman to have a nice day again. HAHAHA. stupid.

you: please let it be true. because if it is, i'm the happiest person ever.

i want to turn the whole thing upside down
i'll find the things they say just can't be found
i'll share this love
i find with everyone
we'll sing and dance to mother nature's songs
i don't want this feeling to go away

the angels sang over and over again__ 10:09 PM;

Monday, February 13, 2006

can't sleep. don't know why. oh well. i'm trying to contact my batch mates about alumni practices but a few of them refuse to pick up the phone or all unable to reach. like what's the point of having a handphone if you're not going to turn it on?! retard.

i'm so bored. i don't know what to do. came online hoping there would be somebody to talk to. but there isn't. was watching mtv just now. didn't really keep me entertain for a long time. i think usher's caught up video is retarded. haha. but it's funny. sort of. i find it funny. and the dance is very nice. i still want to dance. where's qazim?

i almost wish there was school. at least that would be something to do. i've so many free days with nothing to do at all. i spend the whole day either online or asleep. so boliao la. i need something to do.

i wanted to watch the sunset yesterday. with qazim. but he wouldn't go watch it with me. cause his mama didn't allow. because there were ghost. OKAY. does the sun set in the east anyway? haha. seriously. i can't remember where it sets and where it rises. stupid. haha. OHWELL. anyone want to go watch the sunset with me?

could things possibly just come to a halt like that?

gone, going.
gone, everything.
gone, don't give a damn.
gone, be the birds, when they don't wanna sing.
gone, people, all awkward with their things,
gone.

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:56 AM;

Sunday, February 12, 2006

saw this on marcus' blog. quite interesting. shall do it too. whee whee.

SEVEN QUALITIES I WANT IN A POTENTIAL SPOUSE:
1) brains
2) humour
3) romantic-ness? HAHA. what the hell.
4) loyalty
5) caring heart
6) sweetness? that sounds weird
7) initiative

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1) sleeping in the dark
2) dying
3) cockroaches
4) losing my friends
5) losing my loved ones
6) being alone
7) ghost?

SEVEN RANDOM SONGS:
1) under the gun by the killers
2) the great divide by scott something
3) sitting waiting wishing by jack johnson
4) when you tell me that you love me by westlife and diana ross
5) at the beginning by ? and ?
6) once upon a december by ?
7) vindicated by dashboard confessionals

SEVEN THINGS I LIKE MOST:
1) having friends
2) him
3) reading
4) boning
5) sleeping
6) watching tv
7) yakking all day long

SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY BEDROOM:
1) my bed
2) my pillow
3) my bolster
4) my diary
5) my storybooks
6) my memory box
7) my pictures

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
1) my right middle finger is purple. black actually.
2) my hair is too long
3) my o level results are 10 points
4) my birthday falls on the 27th of september
5) i've big feet. HAHA. how unflattering. ok. not THAT big.
6) i like to dance. for some strange reason.
7) i wish i was taller.

SEVEN THINGS I PLAN TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1) swim with the killer whales
2) get married to someone i love and whom loves me
3) go see the auroras, both northern and southern
4) get a phD
5) travel the world
6) tour nasa and look at the solar system
7) ?

SEVEN THINGS I CAN DO:
1) play the bone
2) maths. most of the time at least.
3) type really fast?
4) laugh. HAHA. what the hell.
5) freak people out?
6) talk non stop
7) play the piano

SEVEN THINGS I SAY MOST:
1) haha
2) whatever
3) er
4) ryt
5) anything lo
6) okie then
7) you sucker

SEVEN CELBRITY CRUSHES:
1) orlando bloom
2) tyron leitso
3) josh duhamel
4) brad pitt
5) elijah wood
6) david sneddon
7) ryan gosling

SEVEN PPL I WANT TO DO THIS:
1) qazim
2) celia
3) xingwen
4) ansley
5) brian
6) lek
7) jialin

yep. on friday, before we went to collect the results, we went to eat yong tau fu. a 10 bill flew at my face. a sign it was, and it came true. haha. wonderful.

i have run to the ocean
through the horizon
chased the sun
i've waited for the light to come,
and at times i would give up
you have
wrapped your loving arms 'round me,
and with your love
i'll overcome.

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:28 PM;

Saturday, February 11, 2006

everyone is leaving me. everyone.

but do what you want. REALLY. it's your future anyway.

the angels sang over and over again__ 8:02 PM;

my sister's got a cool new phone. the nokia 6111. very nice. the phone. but the functions are a bit strange looking. haha. WHAT SHALL I DEMAND FROM MY PARENTS NOW? i'm such a sucker.

my sister's friends are coming over for dinner. she told me to invite my friends too. but i don't think they're free. for example, ansley is having some sort of function. jialin is out. won't be home anytime soon. and so ya. basically, i think they would prefer not to have free dinner. oh well. i shall just stay in here (the computer room) and be anti social. shan't go out and talk to all those people whom i don't know.

i've got a headache. i think it's because of sleeping next to my handphone. and also because i've been sleeping most of the day. nothing much else to do today. so sleep lo. whenever i've got the chance. what a pig. haha.

one of my sister's friends is one of cleo's 50 most eligible bachelors. anyone wants to come over? HAHA.

i don't know how to interpret those signs.

i'll sing this somber serenade
the past is done
we've been betrayed
it's true
someone said the truth will out
i believe without a doubt, in you

the angels sang over and over again__ 7:01 PM;

Friday, February 10, 2006

the results were out today. i did ok. i guess. haha. celia will kill me if she read this. but i wanted less la. aimed for less. not that i'm not happy with my results. i am. very much so. THANK GOD i didn't do as badly as i imagine i could have. i got 5 As. so sickening. one more to go back for speech day to recieve prize. haha. sickening. MY A MATHS GOT A 1!!! haha. so happy la. SO DID MY COMBINED HUMANITIES! yay yay yay. haha. i got 10 by the way.

we took our results by class register. thank god. if not i would have to wait for 35 people before taking my results. celia, yilin and i were suppose to open our envelopes together but yilin pang sei us. haha. we were standing waiting for our turn. and then i was so afraid. i wanted to cry. brian was standing next to me and he was kind of freaking out at my reaction. haha. i wasn't afraid most of the day. didn't really think about it much. or bother about it. neither did celia. then when we entered the hall we suddenly felt it. haha. so retarded la. then the nervousness subsided and only came back when standing in line to collect. i was so so so freaked out that my most horrible nightmare would come true and i would get f9 for everything or something. collected the results, flipped it over and walked towards celia really slowly. then i became dysfuncitonal and couldn't tear my report thingy properly. haha. so retarded. eugene had to call at that exact time when i was being dysfunctional. sucker. haha. then yea. sat around in the hall for quite awhile. then decided to leave for swensen's ice cream. haha. we ate so much. we ate 110+ bucks worth of food. wanted to puke after that cause we were all so full. haha. STUPID. typical us. haha. then went our seperate ways to go home. and here i am now. home.

i kind of can't believe i got 10. i thought i'd do horribly. don't know why. just had ALL the worst case scenarios in my head. like f9 for english. f9 for everything basically. but that didn't happen. phew. the fact that i got an a1 for a maths shows that miracles DO happen and therefore EVERYONE should work VERY hard for a maths. haha.

BRIAN: see. i do shout out to you. i was telling you about my a maths getting a 1. then i remembered i got a 3 for my prelims a maths. i posted about it and you told me to JIAYOU cause i could do it for a maths. well. THANK YOU LOADS! thanks for the faith and encouragement. haha. YAY to us both! haha.

QAZIM: i'm sure you can contribute to sajc in some way. GOOD LOOKS i tell you, GOOD LOOKS. haha. waterboy la. waterboy for EVERY SINGLE sport. haha. especially rugby. haha. you retard.

SHAUN: i forgot to thank you for always having been there for me during the o levels period. and your a maths tys. haha. you're the BEST junior ever. thanks SO much. haha.

yep. that's basically about it for today then.

on the radio
she was that summer song
packing them in
making them dance
a law of her own
taking the time to sing it

the angels sang over and over again__ 8:11 PM;

Sunday, February 05, 2006

so here i am. blogging. again. after 2 hours of watching tv.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEK!

LEK: you're seventeen. though that's not exactly a big deal. since you can't drink nor drive. good actually. then you won't get yourself killed in a car accident. haha. i'm psychotic. but anyway. you have fun yea? doing whatever the hell you do. sad that we can't celebrate your birthday with you. since you having your odac competition. oh well. i doubt you'll even read this entry. so ya. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! have fun.

my big fat greek wedding is a nice movie. haha. it's so touching. and it's damn funny la. i wonder if greeks are really like that. haha. so amusing. quite cool really. but yea. culture shock. haha. crazy.

i have a right to know yea? if i asked you would you answer me. i don't know how to ask you; what to ask you. i think i may just be afraid of the truth. slowly what i heard begins to seem real, and i can't look at you without wondering whether those things did in fact happen. i deserve to know.

silence. i'm kind of waiting for something to happen.

you see everything, you see every part
you see all my light and you love my dark
you dig everything of which i'm ashamed
there's not anything to which you can't relate
and you're still here

the angels sang over and over again__ 12:00 AM;

Saturday, February 04, 2006

i wanted to blog about something on my way home. but i kind of forgot what it is.

went back for twe band today. it was fun. played with julie, syahida and sofia. lifeng and shaun weren't there. they had to go for some remedial thing. miss temasek. the school. i was taking bus 10 to school. it was so, strange. seeing all those houses, those buildings, that i haven't seen for such a long time. it was a good feeling. walking into that school, waiting at that bus stop. i miss temasek. ended up yawning through out band. slept at like 2 yesterday and woke up at 8 this morning. in the end i became too tired to play and decided to go look at other scores. was looking for anastacia actually. but it disappeared. rickson took it. apparently. oh well. will just have to look at it another time. really want to see that score.
i think twe is losing their identity.
then went for lunch with ansley and xingwen at my favourite yong tau fu place. damn heavenly. still the same. so sad. that we don't get many chances to eat it anymore. since it's like so far from our present school it closes by the time we're back in the east. oh well. will just have to eat it on weekends then. went to cold storage to examine food. damn retarded. haha. but ya. just one of those silly things we do. came home and slept. till like 6. i think i'm going to be up all night again. can't really sleep.

there's not much to do online either. nobody is online. nobody i can chat with anyway. oh well. where's all my talkative friends when i need them? think i'll go watch tv or something.

CELIA: i think it's kind of cool? now that we're apart most of the time, but we're closer. it's nice. a nice comfortable friendship we've got here. haha. and i thank WHOEVER so much that i've got you. I LOVE YOU BABE. haha. suddenly felt very happy to have you as my best bud. haha. don't care about DUH boy la. me can already. haha. oh well. HAHA.

every morning, when i wait for 13 at the hainanese restaurant bus stop, this SAME 12 bus ( i think) goes by. it advertises chinese. it's got this HUGE cool word and these 3 people in suits looking smart. i think. one of them is hossan leong. just thought i'd let everyone know about the PURPLE bus. haha. as in. the bus is purple. really.

saw this couple. i think they're a couple at least. er, i wouldn't say their old, but their not exactly my parents age either. they had 5 dogs la. it was damn wacked. but the dogs all very cute. and very small. not very la. a few were quite small. the others were like medium size? i don't know. but they all looked very cute. fluffy dogs with lots of hair.

i want to ask you out. as in. just hang out. but i don't think it'll work. and i think i'll feel silly.

the hint of these new tears are sharp.
i try to choke them back.
but it's useless.
i am useless against them.
they are beating me with ease.

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:11 PM;

Friday, February 03, 2006

today, i had quite a bad day. it started off with BAD STUFF, then had physics test, then had to go for the rocket blast off thing, then went for sectionals. not that i didn't like sectionals. just that it was damn confusing. spartacus? damn strange. totally MIND BLOGGLING i tell you.

ansley and xingwen went for smu band today. so i was quite lonely. thanks to benjamin, i was entertained all the way home. haha.

BENJAMIN: do you read my blog? haha. anyway. THANKS LOADS yea? for pei-ing me today. if not i sure die of loneliness one. haha. but anyway. yakking was damn fun. we should do it more often. haha. thanks for sharing those things with me. we can do it EVERY friday. haha. if they go for smu every friday la. haha. OHWELL. so psycho. haha.

i'm not a person accustomed to change. i don't like change. i like things routine, set. change kind of frightens me. things staying the same is sometimes better. so why change when nothing is wrong? redundant isn't it?

do i really know you? at all?

you- you ask me what went wrong
me- i'll write you this last song
please- just tell me one way we can win
one- more thing before I go
two- the one who loves me so
three- don't make me count to three again

the angels sang over and over again__ 10:20 PM;

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

i'm actually online because i have to do research for lit. on julius and octavius caesar. it's quite interesting la. check it out.

www.vroma.org/~bmcmanus/caesar.html
www.bbc.co.uk/history/historic_figures/augustus.shtml

i was talking to qazim yesterday on the phone? early in the morning. then he was singing. SCREAMING more like. into my ears. damn HORRIBLE. haha. sorry qazim. then i told him to stop singing. i was getting goosebumps. guess what qazim said. I USE TO READ THOSE BOOKS! haha. ABSOLUTE bimbo please.

CONFESSIONS OF A BIMBO SLUT.

stupid qazim. haha.

today's band was damn fun. haha. we played that the blues song. played it before. remember hating it the first time i played it because i was lost most of the song. which is very pathetic. haha. today it was fun. cause er, i wasn't lost? haha. not that much at least. then all the glisses very fun. whee whee. haha. arsenal was nice. though i couldn't play the semiqauver part. and the high a flat. was it a flat. ya. i think so. but the song is nice. enjoyed band today. wheelala. stupid qazim. haha.

QAZIM: i'm still waiting. for my shoutout. haha.

well. i'm bored like hell. feel like going to sleep already. it's a bit early though. haha. so it'll be quite crazy if i go sleep now. at least i wouldn't fall asleep in school tommorrow. i think. tommorrow is going to be a good day. really. the lessons are all nice. yay. love gp. haha.

ya. my entry today is quite pointless. haha. i'm just bored la. then like nothing else to do. sad case. haha. sudden urge to go back to temasek. haven't been in that place so long le. haven't sat at the parade square; haven't walked up and down those flights of stairs; haven't seen ms woon; haven't played with twe. sigh. so ya.

OHMYGOD. the results are out next week la. i'm freaking out like shit lo. alot of people are going to go, AIYO yi mei, FOR WHAT? you sure score well one lo. no. nothing is guaranteed. nothing. and i may just do very badly for all you know.

i'm scared. very scared. can anyone even begin to fathom why?

but if it makes you happy
keep on clapping
just remember
i'll be by your side
and if you don't let go, it's gonna pass you by

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:33 PM;