just let me hear the angels sing.

Friday, March 31, 2006

so many things to do. so little time do it. argh. sometimes i wonder why i bother to do all these things. why not just move on with life and fully commit myself to where i am right now. but then i realise i love the past too much to just let go. but then again, i guess i am already involved that slight bit what. so why go that extra mile. but it's fun. and i hope it'll be fulfilling one day. it better be. if not i'll probably throw myself into the canal. i guess it's just something i'm so used to doing already? not the throwing myself into the canal thing. duh. so. it's kind of weird if i don't continue. and i do love organising stuffs and all that rubbish. it's cool la. real cool. and i enjoy doing it. so i should be happy about it ya? but sometimes it just becomes a little too much. now that real studying has started. then i forget what is more important. the past or the present. am i getting over-involved? am i reverting back to who i was in secondary 3? damn. i really don't know. sigh.

alumni was real cool. yay. haha. bitching with selvam. so exciting. sitting on different ends still can bitch. hek hek hek. la cucaracha is damn cute la. i love playing that song. so funny. love it love it love it. playing 3rd is fun. haha. when the notes are not THAT freaking low la. it's relaxing and i don't have to force anthing too much, and it's kind of easier to play? the middle range notes. i do so love the feeling of playing with all these familiar faces again. yay. it's that feeling i guess. that feeling.

PAMELA: no worries man. i'll forever be studying chemistry with you. i'm your chemistry lab partner for the rest of our lives remember? haha. we're going to take h10 chemistry next year please. and we'll be like the national top for chemistry la. confirm plus guarantee CHOP CHOP CHOP. haha. silly farts. haha. yay us.

CELIA: haha. sorry ar. just read your blog man. anyway. haha. whatever la. not like as if alot like that. i'm NOT flooding heaven lo. heaven could do with a little bit more of YI MEI'S WONDERFUL ESSENCE anyway. HAHA. faster faster. i want the book. hek hek hek. i miss you like siao also please. ARGH. sigh. :(

ANSLEY: sorry man. you're not in that picture. but we are together right? haha.

we're getting better. thank god.

when will we be together again?

every street is dark
and folding out mysteriously
where lies the chance we take to be
always working
reaching out for a hand that we can't see
everybody's got a hold on hope
it's the last thing that's holding me

the angels sang over and over again__ 10:15 PM;

Sunday, March 26, 2006

today was a SUPER uneventful day. was suppose to meet celia at gelare. but it was raining too heavily for her to leave her house. so we didn't meet up in the end. i spent the whole day at home. sleeping and watching the terminal. oh ya. i did my chemistry lecture notes examples. haha. whatthehell.

the terminal is a nice show! although it DOES get a little draggy. but it's very nice. like the delores and enrique story? damn sweet la. so cute lo. haha. but so unbelievable. they don't even know each other. but it was so cute! haha. and the gupta. crazy old man. and amelia. sad case. why did she have to go back to that jerk. damn nice show. MUST watch. MUST MUST MUST. haha.

ya. since today was a uneventful day, i don't really have things to blog about. hmm.

oh ya. ALUMNI STARTS TUESDAY!! AHHHH!!! so fun! can't stand it. haha. can't wait lo. so bloody exciting! SELVAM is playing!!!! YAY!!! so happy! haven't played with him for so long already. playing the bone with him that is. haha. i can't wait la. it's like, in a day's time? a day plus plus la. but still very exciting! haha. yay yay yay yay.

the band dinner is also approaching! haha. so exciting. as in. the temasek wind ensemble band dinner. on the 30th of may. yay yay yay. but that basically means i'll have more to do la. which is quite irritating. so many things to take note of. i think i'll forget. shit. better go write it down somewhere where i can also see it.

PAMELA: NO! i'm NOT thanking you. NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT thanking you. haha. idiot.

so we've come down to this. sad case, sad case. things will get better i guess. one day.

i'm two quarters and a heart down
and i don't want to forget how your voice sounds
these words are all i have so i'll write them
so you need them just to get by

celia, qaqa and i! the 3 kukus from 4unity. haha.

eeee. i think i look ugly. ohwell. our class tshirt! haha. wth.

i think i look nice with qaqa. like wth. haha. he says its the same specs. which I LIKE. haha.

the racially harmonious group. celia naughty naughty. never wear bottoms. haha.

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:28 PM;

Saturday, March 25, 2006

90 miles outside chicago
can't stop driving
i don't know why
so many questions
i need an answer
two years later, you're still on my mind

whatever happened to emilia earhart
who holds the stars up in the sky
is true love once in a lifetime
did the captain of the titanic cry

someday we'll know
if love can move a mountain
someday we'll know
why the sky is blue
someday we'll know
why i wasn't meant for you

does anybody know the way to atlantis
or what the wind says when she cries
i'm speeding by the place where i met you
for the 97th time tonight

someday we'll know
if love can move a mountain
someday we'll know
why the sky is blue
someday we'll know
why i wasn't meant for you

someday we'll know
why samson loved delilah
one day Iill go
dancing on the moon
someday you'll know
that i was the one for you

i bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
i watched the stars crash in the sea
if i could ask God just one question
why aren't you here with me?

someday we'll know
if love can move a mountain
someday we'll know
why the sky is blue
someday we'll know
why i wasn't meant for you

OHWELL.

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:22 PM;

Friday, March 24, 2006

what could the maltesers have done to get so cruelly discarded in the river? the maltesers wrapper led its owner on with all the sweetness and attractiveness of it's wrapper and smell. so crunchy, so satisfying. then its poor owner wanted so badly to open it, but its showed the owner its expiry date. at the eleventh hour. and the owner felt so sad, so bad, so cheated, so awkward. the owner squashed its guts out and flung it deliriously into the Singapore river.

yup. that's pamela's crazy story. haha.

met up with my old girlfriends again today. so happy to see them. jialin la. basically. the last time i saw her was like, WHEN? haha. felt great to be talking to her. hanging around the very not hip bedok interchange. haha. sat at the hot stone thingy chatting with ansley and jialin. digressed alot. bloody idiots. haha. then jialin just sat there wondering what we were saying. haha. so evil of us. SORRY. celia joined us later. stared at her eat her prawn mee. it was quite nice. but it made me itch. so i decided not to risk it and eat even more and kill myself or something. haha. went to macs after that. to sit and yak. helped celia with her phrases. haha. idiot. what's the first word? next one? next one? haha. TEH. saw our juniors. as in, ansley and i saw our juniors. haha. then we seperated and now here i am la. at home.

wonder when zat wants to go shopping again. i need to buy my sister a birthday present. haha.

ANSLEY, CELIA, JIALIN: thanks for today ya? felt better with you guys being there. thanks. love you guys loads.

PAMELA: thanks for today and yesterday. really appreciate it. :D

ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch

the distance grows,
i'm sinking down
and what i lost,
it can't be found
although i try
can't find my way
nothing is falling into place

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:06 PM;

Thursday, March 23, 2006

toutou did something really interesting this morning. was it this morning? ya. i think so. she climbed up the grills. at the side. then she continued on to the top where she was hanging like there were monkey bars or something. that was pretty normal la. saw it before. the funny thing was she started moving sideways. like on the same wire. she knew how to coordinate her paws left right left right to climb to the other side. so she got to the 'balcony' and i thought she was going to let go and have fun on the 'balcony' or something. but NO. she reversed and went back to her original position and started chewing on the grills. haha. crazy girl. i think she got sick of the taste of rust and decided to find nicer spots to chew on. haha. toutou is my hamster anyway.

had a nice long walk with pamela after band today. walked from school to boon keng. we were suppose to walk to serangoon actually. she said there was some nice food down there. so we walked lo. and i didn't feel like eating her nice food. so we walked on some more. walked and walked and walked, looking for food. found 7-11. decided to drink draft cola. it tasta kind of weird? not like how i remembered it tasting. and it's beer bottle like appearance. haha. so stupid. people kept staring at me la. like what is this sajc girl doing walking on the street and getting drunk? haha. it was cola. hello. got to boon keng. damn cool. can't imgine walking from say, kembangan to bedok. took the mrt. decided to get off at clark quay for fun. got off and walked even more. damn stupid. walked along the river trying to get to the other side of the road. we're such idiots. there was an underground pass. haha. stupid. finally got to the other side. sat on a bench trying to figure out if the water was going upstream or downstream. thought it was going downstream, but the particles were moving upstream. weird. finally decided to carry on with out lives. walked along the river to city hall. got to city hall and here i am. at home.

saw the freaky ice cream man at the bridge again. he did the same thing. saint andrew's jc? then we ignored him because i told pamela about my experience with him that day. then he was like, saint andrew's jc? eh, c'mon, you're don't so selfish. then we both just gave him the HUH look and walked really fast away. like what is his problem la? i think he's damn weird. i'm so never going to that bridge EVER again.

i guess there's no too then.

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:11 PM;

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

CALF CRAMP. keep getting those things nowadays. for example this morning. woke up and the first thing that happened to me was a calf cramp. like OUCH. dang. what are you lacking when you get cramps? sodium or calcium? i'm sure i have MORE THAN ENOUGH calcium. sodium level should be quite ok right? hmmm.

my blood clot is moving. yay. haha. i forgot that it was stuck on my nail and that it was moving because my nail was growing. like duh. stupid. haha. weiqin had to point it out to me. then i was like, OH YA HOR. haha. i was so totally like wondering how come the blood clot was moving in such a cool way. like wouldn't it seep out slowly, why was it moving as a whole block? HAHA. idiot. yup. so now i'm slowly watching my nail's progress. it's very interesting. celia wants me to keep my nail when i cut it off so she can have a look at my blood. or something. i don't know. crazy woman. haha.

super DENSE please. i thought i was DENSE enough.

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:13 PM;

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

it's the first week of school! it's quite ok la. so far. since it's still lecture timetable. get to slack in the cafe quite alot. yup. like today. sat in the cafe playing bingo. SO SENIOR CITIZENS please. haha. damn funny. it was so, kind of freaky? made me very anxious. screaming bingo and all. haha. DAMN kuku. we're all crazy farts. it's damn fun doing everything as a batch. ok. not really the whole batch. quite clique-ish, i know. but ya. it's fun being with those kuku people. haha. everyone else is ALWAYS welcomed! haha.

went for self practice. not really self practice. since ms ho wanted to lock up the band room. and i was kind of too tired to play anyway. oh well. sat there and listened to ms ho's stories about her first boyfriend. damn cute la. haha. she 'fell down' so as to hold her boyfriend's hand. HAHA. cute. then read lime. read the last page out to everyone. it was some stupid laws about sex. damn stupid. yea. got everyone talking about sex. haha.

pamela says i'm too blunt and not obvious enough when it comes to you. HELLO. what am i suppose to do? run around declaring how i really feel? maybe i should have. saves us all that trouble. well. if you do read my blog, i like you. too. right? i hope. and i'm freaking jealous. pamela, is that obvious enough?

jealousy, turning saints into the sea
swimming through sick lullabies
choking on your alibis
but it's just the price i pay
destiny is calling me
open up my eager eyes

the angels sang over and over again__ 8:48 PM;

Saturday, March 18, 2006

PAMELA: i can't believe we chatted on the phone for 3 hours and 39 minutes!! haha. cool stuff please. and you ARE a clown, just admit it. you're a total clown. nobody beats you at entertainment. haha. sorry la, just now very blur. didn't understand half the things you were saying. PIG. disgusting pig. haha. it's 7:48 and you're still in your pajamas. though that sounds quite normal, since it's at night. BUT. this woman bathed in the morning and changed back into her pajamas. like HOW SPASTIC is that? haha. bumming around happily in your pajamas. haha. remember we're buying jiahao pajamas for perth? power rangers k? hahaha. your story is very funny. the one on msn and your dream. i've never heard of such freaking dramatic dreams before. damn funny la. haha. and you die in the end. so tragic! haha. oh well. but still very funny. HAHAHA. sorry. haha. yea well. all the best to you and your cute guys la. haha. SO MANY. haiyo. you ar. haha. 1... 2... **** off... HAHAHA. damn funny la. but you like eh? so cute. cannot stand it. faster, go pursue it. I'M PROUD OF YOU PAMELA, you've grown up! haha. WHATEVER! see you monday!

the angels sang over and over again__ 7:48 PM;

it's kind of strange, reading and not seeing my name. then i realise i don't see your names either, in what i write. dammit, i miss you guys like crap.

i'm afraid you'll find someone else. someone more attractive, more interesting.

no, don't leave me this way.

the angels sang over and over again__ 3:23 PM;

went shopping with zat yesterday. DAMN FUN i tell you. haha. did so many stupid things. i wanted zat to run round the fountain to make a wish but he didn't want to. because WISHES DON'T COME CHEAP, you have to PAY. whatthehell i tell you. haha. but yea. looked at this cool glass thing at olio restaurant. damn exciting la. it's like. you can look inside from a slanted view but you can't look straight in. damn exciting i tell you. haha. we walked so much la. i swear i could die. like walked from raffles place to victoria concert hall, victoria concert hall to raffles city shopping centre, rcsc to raffles hotel, raffles hotel to suntec city. WALAO. walk until i want to die. haha. and it was DAMN hot. sickening. we were walking to vch when this ice cream vendor suddenly went, saint andrew's junior college right? then i was like, er, ya. then he said, i look at your skirt i straightaway know. then i was like, WHATTHEHELL are you looking at my skirt for. so zat and i were sort of freaked out and tried to get away from him. went to vch to collect zat's grade 5 theory exam certificate. I TOOK GRADE 5 TOO! haha. retard. then went down to the entrance there. listened to the bagpipes. which i thought was quite painful. we were trying to see if the queen was there. however, was kind of unsuccessful. and i think she wasn't there. don't know le. oh well. started videoing from there. on our walked to rcsc, we stopped to watched a softball match between raffles and don't know who. i think it's hwa chong. don't know. the ball is TOTALLY not soft. this girl hit the ball towards the road la. then when it landed it was like TOCK! damn loud la. freaky much. moved on the rcsc lo. where we tried to find shawls in polo JEANS. i told zat it was JEANS but he didn't believe me. then we er, walked to sasha's and company on the other side of raffles hotel. DAMN NICE LA! all the bears. so freaking cute. I LIKE. though i'm not really a soft toy person. haha. but all those teddy bears were so damn cute. and so cool lo, each of them had their own names. I LIKE. haha. yea. decided on which ones we were going to buy. it was a sheep though, not a bear. haha. took a detour to MISS CLARITY CAFE which was damn cute. haha. cause everything was so bright and happy. haha. drank strawberry milkshake and ate wedges and fries. zat drank some tropical thingy, which was a blend of oranges and pineapples. took more videos. haha. video whores. haha. so fun. finally went on to suntec. what did we do there? er... hmm... oh yea. bought a hairband. HAHA. cause i broke mine in the morning. so spastic la. i didn't realise i broke it until i was outside the main gate of the secondary/primary school. i decide to adjust my hairband then like OK.. my hairband broke. haha. spastic. THANK GOD i had my clips in my wallet. haha. so anyway, bought my hairband. then went to look at royce chocolates. there was this cool display. damn nice. they used chocolate powder to make a heart shape. which i think is so cool. haha. retard. then we walked to millenia walk. saw this SERIOUSLY HUGE candy empire. I NEVER SEE BEFORE! so suaku. the only i saw was the mini one in changi airport terminal 2. haha. anyway. it was damn cool. i wanted to buy easter eggs. but no money. sad. oh well. zat discovered new functions to my video camera. yay him. haha. then er. walked really slowly to the dreamweavers place. the things there were cool. but i think a little over the budget? we shall see about that lo. i guess. yea. then we walked back to suntec. and thus ended our shopping date. haha. SO FUN. but i hated the walking part. haha.

whoo. that is one huge chunk of words. haha.

woke up at 6:10 yesterday. because i needed to be in school by 7:15. damn early la. when i took the mrt, there wasn't even a morning rush yet. haha. like i had a seat la. in fact, i don't think anyone was standing on the train. yea. so i got to school REAL early. but shioks was already there. i wonder what time she wakes up la. haha. yea. like that lo. waited for everyone to arrive then started moving over to sas. waited quite awhile for the peixin kids to arrive. some of them were DAMN cute. haha. it was so funny la. listening to brandon's comments about these kids. i think he's never seen big kids in his life. then i ask him sajs don't have mer? then he say no, all small small one. haha. SO FUNNY. then he said the bass clarinet was bigger than the girl who played it. haha. so funny. basically, the whole exchange was spent staring at these little kids. haha.

so it seems we have our own lives now.

"i didn't train you to be a band major to meet other people's expectations." thanks zat. i'll try my best to always remember.

what's the deal with my brain?
why am i so obviously insane?
in a perfect situation
i let love down the drain.
there's the pitch, slow and straight.
all i have to do is swing
and i'm a hero, but i'm a zero.

the angels sang over and over again__ 2:29 PM;

Thursday, March 16, 2006

ARGH! i am SO STUPID.

DID I LIKE JUST DO THAT?

ARGH!!!!!

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:54 PM;

ARGH. I AM FREAKING PISSED. I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY WIRES I'VE TRIED TO STIC INTO THE STUPID CHARGER AND I STILL CAN'T FIND THE RIGHT ONE! DAMMIT! TOMORROW IS GOING TO BE A FREAKING INTERESTING DAY TO VIDEO AND YET I CAN'T GET THE BLOODY VIDEO CHARGED! ARGH! ARGH! ARGH!

i wanted to make the whole paragraph above in large font. but that would be kind of extreme. DAMMIT. SORRY ZAT! :(

so anyway. i'm kind of too lazy to continue about monday. so ya. shall move on with the rest of the week. nothing much happened la actually.

went back to temasek today. felt really old. haha. since i was the only alumnus back there. OHWELL. nobody else is as boliao as me. but i went back with a purpose ok. haha. yea. filmed the exchanged thingy. or at least, provided the device for filming. haha. WHICH IS CURRENTLY NOT CHARGED. argh. yea. then er. watched it la. basically. at like 4+, zat and i became too hungry. couldn't tahan anymore. went downstairs to ask aunty shirley for food. haha. so pathetic right? but desperate already. oh well. haha. aunty shirley still remembers me! haha. and her daughter. still remember my name please. THANKS. haha. chatted with her in chinese. like how weird is that? haha. then we ate our food! which was very nice. haha. felt quite bad since the rest of the band was starving. OHWELL. haha. went back upstairs to watch the exchange again. decided to practice my bone. or shaun and lifeng's bone la. haha. i think i sound better on the vincent bach b50 then on a yamaha. sad case. oh well. i think if i stole the b50 it'll be kind of obvious. shucks. after that, went to starbucks with zat to further discuss our plans for band dinner. which was damn mafan. the plans la. had to think of all this rubbish. i'm going SHOPPING with zat tomorrow! haha. so exciting please. haha. whatthehell. and i so cannot write a speech please. like OHMYGOD. shit sia.

the reception in my house is very bad. which is damn funny la. haha. i have to walk around the hall to get reception. how retarded is that? haha.

i think i should go sleep already. since i have to wake up so early tomorrow. but it's still kind of early. AND I HAVE NO ONE TO GO TO SCHOOL WITH TOMORROW! argh. stupid ansley. haha. ohwell. whatever. the trip is not very long anyway.

that's it for today.

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:12 PM;

Monday, March 13, 2006

today's practice wasn't as bad as i expected it would have been. THANK GOD. the introduction thingy was quite successful. all those stuff we learnt about xiaowei. HAHA. stupid woman. happily take so many la. haha. retard.

had to make my way down to st patricks to meet mr glosz. yea. then had to make my way to marina for the batch outing.

the batch outing was GREAT! so fun. haha. bowled for quite awhile. though i was REALLY horrible at it. like OH MAN. so embarrssing. i couldn't even get a single pin when i used 2 hands to roll the ball. haha. but OHWELL. haha. played one game of pool. then sat around. no. actually, jumped around taking pictures. haha. stupid. then went for dinner. at the steamboat place. dinner was DAMN fun. haha. sat at the table with rebecca, jonadab, mychelle, emmeline, xiaowei and ansley. laughed the whole night about buns and balls. mychelle's balls to be exact. the soft bouncy ones. HAHA. and balls. of all shapes. coconuts, ping pong balls, softballs, balloons. RUGBY BALLS. like whatthehell la i tell you. couldn't stop laughing the whole night lo. then mychelle and jonadab had a eating watermelon competition. haha. so spastic. tried to trick jonadab. but ohwell. OH. and stuffing the UNCOOKED chicken into the empty cans. cause we thought we'll be charged for extra food. haha. stupid suakus. and the 'waiter' people, who could lift the metal bowl and aluminium foils with their hands. like whatthehell? seriously. it's so hot la. how they picked it up was like totally FREAKY. but yea. we came to the conclusion that they were just trying to act macho and they were actually hurting like hell and cursing inside. HAHA. what else were we laughing about? haha. oh. ansley has 4 buns. haha. but yea. inside joke la. haha. but it was damn funny. there was so much food la. and we hardly ate. i think i'm going to get food poisoning. which is so not good. so i ended up eating all those food that was cooked in the soup thingy.

HECK. i have to go. my dad needs to use the comp. so yea. will continue tomorrow or something.

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:09 PM;

Sunday, March 12, 2006

i'm trying to send songs from my sister's laptop to my computer. it's taking FOREVER. like seriously FOREVER. argh. i might as well just give up.

had an interesting day today. went out with celia in the morning. then met zat, weijian and eugene. it was a DAMN interesting meeting. haha. stupid eugene, forgot there was ACTUALLY a meeting. he just happened to see his friend at small mac. then weijian came along and eugene was like OH YA. hahaha. genius. then we sat at small mac for awhile. decided to move on to big mac. then on to kfc. tried filming, but failed. because the camera zoom was very POWER, the frame very big, couldn't fit all of us in. had ALOT of bimbotic moments. haha. gave up filming in the end. oh ya. the tripod was stuck. so stupid. spent don't know how long trying to get it out. panicked like mad at first, gave up later. went on to serious stuff. discussing about alumni and all. then there was the BIG FIGHT. which zat and i got down on tape. HAHA. oh. and the 1 to 10 thingy done VERY NICELY by zat. HILARIOUS i tell you. haha. i SO want to show it for the band dinner. hek hek hek. we got the tripod out in the end. and zat and i were shocked by the tape thingy. that ejected itself. so stupid la. we were just staring at the thingy, wondering what was going on. then the tape just POPPED out and we were like OHMYGOD. haha. then didn't know how to put it back in. ZAT, that genius, just happily keep pushing. trying to spoil my video recorder or something. i finally found the push button. AND THEN we watched offstage, when zat was BALD and THIN. hahaha. SO FUNNY! he looked so different. yea. that was my day. haha. OH YA. i met up with celia again after that. haha. stupid us.

CELIA: he is SO SWEET! oh man. i wish he was as sweet. i mean. he is la. he's already very good. what more do i want? haha. but HE IS SO SWEET. okie. i think you're now quite confused about which he i'm speaking about. haha. but anyway. treasure your he la. though he is a bit spastic sometimes, but when you guys do get together, see how good he is to you. haha. be patient ya? good things come to those who wait. haha. i'm sure you guys will be ok. not just ok, but VERY MUCH ok. haha. LURVE!

tomorrow is the start of 2 VERY freaky weeks. i hope i survive the 2 freaky weeks. please please please let them ALL be enthu.

i can't wait for alumni to start. i do hope my mama allows me to attend. i'll kill myself if she doesn't. all alumnus reading, please take note AND remember:

FIRST ALUMNI PRACTICE IS ON THE 28th of MARCH AT 7PM AT THE TEMASEK BAND ROOM. duh.

BAND DINNER IS ON THE 30th of MAY. YOU HAVE TO PAY ANOTHER 32 BUCKS. I WILL START COLLECTING IN THE FIRST WEEK OF MAY.

THANKS.

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:59 PM;

Saturday, March 11, 2006

when was the last time i blogged? i can't quite remember. hmmm.

last week passed pretty quickly. since it was orientation week and all. monday was really retarded. it was just talks that ended at 1145 am. which is kind of good. rather it not drag the whole day. tuesday was induction. WELL. haha. wednesday was orientation in full swing. play games; learn cheers; do cheers; sing the school song stuffs like that. it was fun. yea. thursday was orientation last day. had disco in the evening. which was damn retarded. but fun all the same. thanks to my crazy bandie friends, junjie, jarryl, jiahao, pamela, ansley. did i miss out anyone? hmmm. yea. OH! and dancing the lindy hop with CRAZY XIAOWEI. is that how you spell her name? haha. junjie so enthu to dance the lindy hop. crazy guy. haha. yesterday was cca sign up. so the day ended quite early. went for band. ya. basically, that's it for the week.

STOP IT ALREADY. it's getting so sickening.

when the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love someone, but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

i am SO happy. i feel damn retarded. i don't know if you're happy too. i don't really know how to handle the situation. am i just over-reacting? ARGH. but i'm still SO happy that you're here. YAY.

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:59 AM;

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

ANSLEY: just realised i haven't shouted out to you for a very long time already. haha. SORRY about pictionary yesterday ya? haha. i just figured you'll know. and it's like the first thing that came to my mind. and i don't mean it in any negative way. SO WHAT IF YOU'RE SHORT? I AM PROUD OF MY SHORT FRIEND. HAHA. whatever. but seriously, so what if you're short. you're still cute, pretty, lovable, adorable, lovely, gorgeous, beautiful, awesome, wonderful, sexy, VOLUPTOUS, hot, er. i can't think of any more words. haha. but most importantly, even though you're short, you're still my BESTEST BESTEST BESTEST BEST friend. so ya. don't care if you're short la. people who constantly tease you about being short are just UGLY. plainly, disgustingly, UGLY. hek hek hek. I LOVE YOU!!!!

you've got a way to keep me on your side
you give me cause for love that i can't hide
for you i know i'd even try to turn the tide
because you're mine, i walk the line

the angels sang over and over again__ 1:59 PM;

Monday, March 06, 2006

today was the first time i wore my sajc uniform. felt quite cool in it. though stupid junjie said my skirt was too short and called me a slut. THANKS LO. haha. but everyone else says it isn't. so junjie can GO AND DIE. haha. wearing the sajc uniform is so exciting. haha. how stupid does that sound?

today wasn't exactly anything. just like, listen to talk whole day? the day ended at 1145 though. which was damn bloody early la. not that i'm complaining. but ya. sat around in the cafe and yakked for awhile with my cg mates. then went to the sc to play pictionary. our all time favourite game. haha. stupid. moved on to the band room later to self prac.

met celia for dinner. i waited half an hour for her. cause her ez link got no money. haha. damn smart ar, that girl. haha. went to the same place we had dinner last night to eat. yakked. and she admired my SEXAY uniform. hek hek hek. haha.

CELIA: one day i lend you my sexay uniform la. then we shall we camera whores and take pictures of ourselves all day long. quite gross ar, really? haha. but WHO CARES! haha. hopefully, it'll be a good photo day. not like today. AIYO. so embarrassing. haha.

on the bus home, there was a mini cockroach on the seat in front of me. i was freaking out so badly. i was like, BLOODY DRIVER, DRIVE FASTER, GET ME HOME NOW. i was so damn disturbed by that bloody thing la. like SUPER gross. yuck. haha. and i was watching campus superstar on tv mobile? the second guy ar? when the judges were talking. this temasek dude sitting behind kept sticking the temasek lion up la. so retarded. haha. but it was damn cartoon la. very cute. haha.

there was this woman at the interchange. i think she's mentally unsound. no. seriously. she was like smiling and laughing to herself la. it was quite freaky la. it's quite sad huh? when people go mad. i couldn't help wondering what happened to her? what made her like that? very tragic. i hope i never become mad.

in my head
your voice
you've got all that i need
and this make believe will get me through
another lonely night

i finally decided to contact you. haven't spoken to you for quite sometime. couldn't take it anymore. i was thinking about you on my way home. then i wanted to smile so badly. but that would have been quite kuku. haha. YAY. i'm so glad for, er, everything basically. haha. stupid.

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:08 PM;

Sunday, March 05, 2006

cool stuff. i've been put in charge of the music for the band dinner. hek hek hek. this is going to be so exciting. haha. i can just imagine the songs that are going to be played already. haha. though i don't think the music i have in mind is going to fit the theme. HAHA. but oh well.

went to bedok library to chill with celia. so stupid la. haha. talk about the dumbest things. did the dumbest things. got frightened by joon tat. haha. so stupid la. haha. teh. the bus ride home was extremely long. i think the stupid driver is like driving for the first time or something. damn slow la. was so irritated. wanted to get home asap. but then. now that i'm home, it doesn't really matter. so ya. ARGH.

can you help me unravel my latest mistake?

2 AM and i'm still awake, writing a song
if i get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
threatening the life it belongs to
and i feel like i'm naked in front of the crowd
cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
and i know that you'll use them, however you want to

the angels sang over and over again__ 7:22 PM;

go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
when you fall everyone stands
another day and you've had your fill of sinking
with the life held in your
hands are shaking cold
these hands are meant to hold

speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
move along, move along like i know you do
and even when your hope is gone
move along, move along just to make it through
move along
move along

so a day when you've lost yourself completely
could be a night when your life ends
such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
all the pain held in your
hands are shaking cold
your hands are mine to hold

speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
move along, move along like i know you do
and even when your hope is gone
move along, move along just to make it through

move along
when everything is wrong we move along
when everything is wrong, we move along
along, along, along

when all you got to keep is strong
move along, move along like i know you do
and even when your hope is gone
move along, move along just to make it through

right back what is wrong
we move along

ya ok. i'll try.

the angels sang over and over again__ 1:34 PM;

Saturday, March 04, 2006

there's this advertisement on tv? the good wives/starhub cable tv one. i think it's damn cute. haha. it's really very eye catching. very memorable la. i like that advertisement. just like the ONLY HEAR THE GOOD STUFF advertisment. HOR CELIA? haha. stupid idiot la you. haha. only you can think of such rubbish. haha.

next week is orientation again. i'm with the same people again. og that is. half the og la actually. cindy's with me. THANK GOD. we're og11.

i'm going to miss 06S11. if we do split up. the last few weeks together was really very great. very fun. non stop entertainment playing pictionary. so rubbish la. haha. but so fun. really love that cg. it's going to stink a whole damn lot.

bought my uniform. i think my shirt is too big. i don't know how to tie the tie. tie tie anyone?

i'm afraid that what i wish for won't come true.

and it's okay if you have go away
oh just remember the telephone works both ways
and if i never ever hear them ring
if nothing else i'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause i'll remember everything you sang

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:08 PM;

Thursday, March 02, 2006

why did you become like that?

why are you so scared?

JUST PLAY.

OUCH.

now the questions are imprinted in my mind.

alone with you, alone with me
what can i do, i cannot breathe
my heart is torn, for all to see
alone with you, alone with me.

06S11

the angels sang over and over again__ 8:48 PM;