just let me hear the angels sing.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

happy mothers' day celia and qazim!

haha. you bloody retards. i know it's been forever since i last blogged la. not very free what. alot of things to do lately. or before today la. haha. oh well. anyway. i'm blogging! at last. haha. finally had the time, yes. haha. anyway. it was great going out with you guys that day. when was it? monday? haha. we finally had our reunion after being deprived of each other's presence for like, forever. how long was it? i remember the last time i saw celia was at my concert. qazim too right? unless you count the time i saw you from inside the train. haha. was damn fun la. monday. though i wasn't really in the mood due to certain things. haha. but seeing you guys really made my day. YAY. haha. i can't wait to go out together again. soon la hor? when i come back from perth. haha.

celia: thanks for feeling so angry for me. ok. that sounds kind of weird. haha. as in. for wanting to strangle him and stand up for me or something. haha. for feeling.. i don't know. that way. haha. sorry i was kind of upset the whole evening and not really participating. was just emoing and all. haha. but i really enjoyed that little time we spent together. felt so good seeing you guys again! haha. hope things are going GOOD GOOD GOOD between you guys. haha. i think they are right? good good good. haha. how cute. you lucky girl. haha. do keep me updated ok? though we hardly have anytime for each other now. what with your projects all coming in and my perth trip. and when i come back i have to start mugging for my common test. but we can mug together! you me and qazim. we shall go to popeye's ok? our favourite place in the whole wide world. haha. then me and qazim can study while you do your projects. haha. yay. can't wait. you take care yea? don't stress out too much about the projects and all. i'll be fine too. no worries. haha.

qazim: you ding dong. haha. you wish i was going to perth for one month right? you want to get rid of me right? haha. YOU GOOD. tsk tsk. haha. anyway. thanks for waking up and making your way down to meet me after all. haha. after your chemistry lesson in the morning. which you conveniently forgot about. and your haircut. trust me. it's not THAT ugly. HAHA. yep. but you came and met me. even though you were suppose to pick me from potong pasir. you liar. haha. but ohwell. tampines mall is cool too. haha. yep. divine retribution man. it's totally fallen upon the both of us. NELLs. haha. i was thinking about it on my way home then i was like, ya man, all those people i haven't really been nice to. retribution i tell you. haha. ohwell. at least we suffer together. haha. we must study together ok? when i'm back from perth. IN A WEEK'S TIME. not one month or one year. haha. we shall mug together. which will probably result in both of us failing EVERYTHING. but ohwell. haha. yup. can't wait for our next reunion. YIPEE!

QAZIM AND CELIA: I LOVE YOU BOTH! MY DARLINGS! WHEN SHALL WE MEET UP AGAIN? SOON YA? SOON! haha. :D

yup. the band dinner is FINALLY over. it was damn cool la. totally enjoyed EVERY minute or it. everything was so damn nice la. the food was SO DAMN nice please. especially the chocolate cake! as zat puts it, it's orgasimic. is that how you spell it? haha. retard. anyway. the whole night was quite hectic la. all that running onto the stage. and giving tokens of appreciation to people whom i didn't even know. damn queer la, i tell you. haha. but it was damn fun. though the item was kind of a failure. SIGH. ohwell. but we had fun. the four of us had fun. haha. then there was all that trying to act gila so that we could win the most gila award. haha. damn kuku la. bloody hell, we didn't win it. dang. haha. but it was still damn fun to act so freaking kuku. hek hek hek. and of course. the highlight of the night was the very last bit. our little surprise. my little surprise. haha. i LOVED it! loved every single bit of it. i'm sure everyone did too. haha. the super unglam video clip of zat. hek hek hek. it's damn funny la. i wish i could put it here. or something. i should transfer it into the computer in twe's bandroom. so people can watch it whenever they need an extremely good laugh. hek hek hek. so glad i made that very slipshot video. but it's the contents that matter huh. haha. yep. then gave him the very pretty alumni gift, sang a happy birthday for him. and that's it. the end of the night! phweet! haha. of course, all the photo taking. alumni picture; band picture; bmas over the years picture; council over the years picture. haha. so elitist la. haha. but WHATEVER. haha. i have no photos to post unfortunately. haha. my camera kind of pang sehed me. haha. so ya. all my photos are in other people's cameras. ohwell. just hope they'll kindly send them to me or something. heck. whatever. haha. and then it was finally time to go home. shared a cab home with zat. reached home around 12+? i don't quite remember. haha. ohwell. bathed and went to sleep immediately. that about sums my band dinner. the band dinner i mean. haha.

now that it's over, it's kind of weird. just like zat said it would be. like. i don't know. we've been preparing so many things for this day. and when it's over, there's this empty feeling? like you've nothing to do. just like graduating from twe. yep. sad sad feeling of emptyness. but also. accomplishment la. i can't believe it la. haha. the dinner was SUCH a success. phweet. haha. loved it loved it loved it! whee whee. haha. though i screwed up quite a bit here and there. like leaving the hotel key in the hotel room and not making enough copies of important documents. now i know. 3 is the magic number. haha. at least i managed to pull the surprise off. haha. zat totally didn't expect the video. he kind of saw the present coming and all. but ya. haha. the video was so cool. haha. had to go and talk to the av dudes myself. though it wasn't that hard. they were very pro and all. thanks av dudes for containing the surprise. haha. and though there were glitches at the start of the video, it came out fine later. zat's big face. haha. totally unexpected. haha. he didn't think i knew how to do it. WELL. haha. my dad has all types of software in his computer see. haha. yep. and so. the chapter of the band dinner is over. it's kind of fun la. planning this. though quite sickening. like so many things to do. have to keep going shopping. handle a WHOLE DAMN LOAD of cash. stuffs like that. but it's fun. and you're doing it for people you love. so ya. can't wait to plan next year's dinner! haha. though i probably won't exactly look happy to do it next year, but i am. haha. maybe i should just go study events coordinating and do that as a living huh? haha. or be zat's personal assistant. haha. whatthehell please. ohwell. HOORAY TO THE TWE BAND DINNER!! whee whee.

and now. the perth trip. oh my marder. we're flying off in 2 days please. 3 days. er. 2 la. haha. whatever. kind of scary, but very exciting nonetheless. haha. i so can't wait la. it's going to be so super exciting. and so super fun. but let's not get carried away huh? haha. ohwell. i can't believe we've to pack our mutes into our check in luggage la. that's so super kuku please. haha. and so out of shape. then later the colour from the copper mutes rub off onto our clothes how? sickening. and junjie. that genius. wants to make use of space and stuff our socks into the mutes. HAHA. later can't come our how? tsk tsk. yea. and i haven't packed la. maybe tomorrow i'll start panicking when it's time to pack. better check that i have enough clothes or something to begin with. haha. later not enough ar. one time stupid. haha. or as xiaowei puts it, smarter don't have. haha. cute.

ok la. guess i'll stop here today. kind of tired. didn't sleep much last night. yea. till the next time then.

celia and qazim: the next time i blog may take pretty long. patience is a virtue ya, darlings? haha.

and when you say you love me do you mean it,
baby when you hold me do you feel it?
should i believe in magic in your eyes,
i would wait until the end of time to hear you say you love me like you mean it,
baby when you hold me make me feel it.
all i wanna do is make you mine
i've been hurt way too many times.

the angels sang over and over again__ 10:19 PM;

Sunday, May 14, 2006

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

yep. it's mothers' day. the second sunday of may. woke up at 5:48 am to bake my mama a cake. woke my sister up. miraculously she woke up without me having to poke her too many times. was suppose to wake up at 5 am. but when my alarm clock rang, i kind of refused to wake up. it was way too early. it's sunday la. walao. when i first heard the alarm i was wondering if i had school. haha. how extremely spastic. went back to sleep and woke up again at 5:48. went downstairs and starting TRYING to bake a cake. it was quite an exciting experience. quite fun really. haha. thank god i used to help my mama bake as a kid. if not the both of us would be clueless. that would be quite disastrous. it turned out pretty fine. though it's kind of overcooked. a little hard and dry. but quite nice for our first attempt. i suppoes. haha. we cooked it so long la. or whatever you call it. we placed in the oven alot of times. kept adding time to it because it was uncooked. damn sickening. it was finally done about 10+. actually. it was done around 8+ i think, but we both fell asleep on the sofa. woke up around 10+. we were both SO happy. haha. that the bloody cake was finally done. so we started cooking breakfast. she did the eggs and i did the sausage and bacon. god. you should have seen the oil. disgusting please! there was this one sausage, where the oil just SQUIRTED out please. oh man. disgusting. the oil splattered on my quite alot. very painful. all over. haha. but oh well. mama woke up. i guess she heard all that frying noise. yep. and we ate breakfast as a family. whee. haha. it's so filling. i'm still like bloody full. so ya. haha. that's mothers' day in my family.

had the 40 hours essay competition interview yesterday. WELL. they didn't really know what to ask me. how about that? so funny la. haha. i wasn't exactly very nervous. don't know why also. oh well. maybe cause xiaowei and ansley were there with me. haha. don't know la. whatever. there are 20 finalists. so that makes it 1 in 2 chances of winning. cross my fingers then. i would really like to win la. i think it would be damn cool if i got to workshadow some marine biologist. then again, i don't think i will. oh well. whatever.

ANSLEY AND XIAOWEI: thanks so much for being there for me yesterday. ya. i mean like BEING THERE FOR ME. you know. haha. teh. so retarded. but ya. i guess you guys calmed my nerves a little bit. yep yep. we shall go shopping together again one day. and when we do, xiaowei, you're going to try on dresses too. haha. i don't care. haha. thanks babes!

it's also colin's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY COLIN!! haha.

i shall go. bye.
how can you not believe in me? you of all people should believe in me. FUCK YOU.
i wish i had been proactive and ask you out. ohwell

when someone said count your blessings now
for they're long gone
i guess i just didn't know how
i was all wrong
they knew better
still you said forever
and ever
who knew

the angels sang over and over again__ 5:55 PM;

Friday, May 12, 2006

you know why killer whales are so fascinating? or why the marine environment just attracts me? or why marine biology is just so interesting?

because they just are. they just are. how am i suppose to explain that?

why the hell do i even want to be a marine biologist?

because i just want to be.

i am so going to suck at this stupid interview. shucks.

i would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

the angels sang over and over again__ 10:35 PM;

Thursday, May 11, 2006

i took part in this gp essay with bang quite awhile ago. we both decided to do it for fun. since no one else was volunteering in our class. we decided to be nice to mr fang. it's called 40 hours. you're suppose to write about your ambition; how you're going to achieve it; name a mentor based in singapore and what you will want to learn from this mentor. i tried to do it late at night. gave up one quarter of the way through. i still remember the dateline was 17th of April. so i went to school on the 17th, trying to think of ways of squirming my way out of handing it in that day. but i couldn't. since mr fang reminded us about it. OHWELL. so i went to the library after school and rushed out a rubbish essay in about half an hour. handed it into his locker and went for self practice. end of story. last i would ever heard of that essay. BUT NO. mr fang found me and told me to find a mentor to increase my chances of winning. and also to print it on white paper. i had my paper printed on BRIGHT ORANGE paper by accident. i didn't have paper at that time actually. and some kind soul put their paper in there and it just printed. oops. thanks kind soul. so ok. fine. went home and just searched for some random person on the internet. added it into my rubbish essay and handed it in again the next day. mr fang then told me i had good news some time later. apparently, they thought it was interesting. so they wanted to publish it in the school paper. i was like what the hell. interesting? you got to be kidding me. i thought it was boring. so i said yes. might as well. maybe it'll look nice on my testimonial or whatever in time to come. and then yesterday, mr fang told me that i had managed to get into the second round. oh. ok. yay. so i sit back and wait for the results to come out. NO. not quite that simple. i have to go down to the national youth council for an interview between 3 to 3:30 pm this saturday. FREAK OUT!!! i don't even know where the national youth council is! and what the hell am i going to say? i'm just going to forget everything and stone in front of them. ya. like what are the chances i'll win anyway.

oh my marder. in true zat fashion.

moving on to other things in my life. i've got rehearsal at xingwen's tomorrow. i still can't believe i'm going to sing. and so many exposed parts. oh my marder. i'm so going to go out of tune and absolutely embarrass myself in front of all these people. oh gosh. i should just kill myself right now to spare myself the embarrassment in time to come. other than that. we still haven't gone shopping. so we don't have much time anyway. i wonder when we're going to do it. soon i hope. before band schedule starts to get hectic again, then i'll have no time to go shopping. yes yes. we have to do it soon. and i still need a dress. does anyone have a dress to loan? anyone tall and fat? lend me your dress please. thank you.

so many lecture test coming up please. i swear i'm going to die. and fail every single one of them. what are the freaking chances i'll even get a double digit for my physics lecture test? at least chemistry and maths got hope. why the hell am i taking physics? gosh. i really don't understand myself. STUPID.

ok. i think i shall go. can't think of anymore stuffs to put. oh yea. beautiful photos!! haha.

bone section picture! damn nice please. haha.

i love this photo. haha. so nice.

don't have anymore for the time being. ohwell. haha. yea. till the next time i get more photos then.

and all my life i've prayed for someone like you
and i thank god that i, that i finally found you
and all my life i've prayed for someone like you
and i hope that you feel the same way too
yes i pray that you do love me too

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:36 PM;

Sunday, May 07, 2006

well. the concert is over. it was good. a cool first concert as a sajc bandie. yay yay. haha. no more extremely suan lips. haha. but it was cool. the whole thing. enjoyed the whole experience. can't wait to start preparing for perth.

the whole day was just quite kuku. i don't know. passed really quickly. presenting the present to the seniors was SO funny. haha. all thanks to eunice's brilliant idea. haha. so eye catching please. UNDERWEAR. haha. cool stuff. then all that camera whoring. haha. tsk tsk. wearing that new uniform. at first it felt quite weird. it wasn't that cream pants with the black stripes on the sides i used to wear. but yep. wearing the whites was cool too. haha. i like it. the blue and white uniform. though my pants were WAY too big. i had to pull them up everywhere i went. i looked so foolish. haha. oh well. i shall have to remember to bring a belt to perth. it was finally time to line up and all. and tada. on with the concert. like i said, everything passed so fast la. haha. saw all my friends! was like a reunion or something. ass club plus royce and qazim. haha. it was so wonderful. seeing all these people. haha. then we had to climb over the side gate fence. HAHA. what a strange first experience in the school for them. wanted to eat at first. but we were all too tired. and nothing was opened anymore. SICKENING. so we went off la. shared a cab home with qazim. yakked a bit. we were both too tired to say much also la. haha. bathed and went to sleep.

met zat at parkway yesterday to do band dinner stuff. yea. can't really elaborate. haha. but it was quite a funny experience. we both had our bubbles burst. bursted? haha. what the hell. yea. oh yea. and now he tells me that ansley, xingwen, himself and myself have to prepare an item. WALAO. thanks for the late notice. haha. freak out please. i mean, if you ask me to make speech, i'm still quite ok with it. but an item?! i'll prolly get stage fright. oh well. haha. i can't wait for the band dinner la! so freaking exciting! it's going to be like super cool please. but got so many things to do! sigh. does anyone know of any SLOW SOOTHING SONGS? please introduce them to me? i need to make a song list for the night. as in. songs with words, not band music please. haha. it's in 23 days! oh my god. freaking fast la! freak out.

well. i guess i shall go. feel like looking for a new blogskin or something. whatever. ciao.

i can't get it out of my head. and because of that, i'm beginning to feel miserable again.

driving away from the wreck of the day
and the light's always red in the rear-view
desperately close to a coffin of hope
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you
if this is giving up, then i'm giving up
if this is giving up, then i'm giving up, giving up
on love, on love

the angels sang over and over again__ 3:50 PM;

Monday, May 01, 2006

went out to study with qazim today. celia was supposed to be there too. but she ended up not joining us. jialin was with us for lunch. yup. there were so many secondary school kids. all studying for their social studies. mid years. haha. how funny. just last year we were doing that too. but we weren't really studying la. more like staring blankly into our books and pretending we were actually absorbing what we were reading. yup. haha. rubbish. good luck to all these mid year people man. haha. got chased away at about 3:45 pm. qazim and i were glad to leave anyway. neither or us had any mood to study anymore. ya. so we upped and left. my mouth felt itchy, needed to fill it with something. so went to crystal jade bakery and bought coffee cup cake. it's damn spongey please. quite nice la. not bad. since we couldn't take the mrt, decided to walk to the other end before walking back to take the mrt. walked until times and decided to go in for a look-see. i was looking at books while qazim was reading brokeback mountain. haha. retard. finally left times after quite awhile. took the escalator downstairs. ate mcdonalds ice cream. i decided my mouth was still itchy and decided to buy chicken pie at polar. we sat down at the randomest place, in the middle of nowhere. one of those seats la, for people waiting for their friends/relatives to arrived. sat there and ate out ice creams. then i ate my chicken pie. qazim entertained me with the 'escalator to hell' story which i wished i could blog about. but it's kind of like, not really for all eyes to see. haha. so ya. dang. haha. he also told me about his birthday. THIS i have to blog about.

qazim's birthday is on the 2nd of August. since he's birthday is before national day, the government will just HAVE to postpone national day. there will be one week of holiday starting from his birthday. this is to allow him enough time to spend his birthday with his MANY friends. he's birthday will be celebrated at sentosa. on the actual day itself. there will be fireworks and a red carpet to welcome him.

ya. like what the hell. haha.

QAZIM: free advertisement le. i just told the whole world when you're birthday is. be grateful ok? haha. now you'll get alot of happy birthday wishes. yay. haha. i would put your number here too. but just to be safe, better not la hor? haha. and my handphone is upstairs. and since i can't remember your number. haha. OHWELL. anyway, thanks for spending the day with me. and trying to cheer me up with that ridiculous 'escalator to hell' story. haha. though it was seriously stupid, it made me laugh. which kind of made me feel better. haha. thanks ya? hopefully we'll be able to go out together again soon. soon la. haha.

oh yea. and qazim was dodging the patrol dogs like a bloody retard. it was so damn funny. haha. ohwell. tak halal. what to do. haha.

i just hope my worries won't come true. but if they do. i guess it'll be my own fault.

where do you go with your broken heart in tow
what do you do with the left over you
and how do you know, when to let go
where does the good go, where does the good go

the angels sang over and over again__ 8:37 PM;