just let me hear the angels sing.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

i love watching life as we know it. though it gets quite sad sometimes. and doesn't go as i would want it to. but yea. it's a really good show. of course it doesn't kill that all 3 lead actors are so cute. yup. the show rocks.

and one tree hill is back! i'm happy. yay. though it's quite weird. don't really know what is going on. since i missed the first episode. i think. and nathan's mum is such a bitch. what's her name again? shit. i can't remember. oh ya. deb. i think. sickening la. stupid woman. can't she just be happy for nathan and hayley. they're so cute together lo. oh well. stupid tv shows.

now i'm waiting for las vegas to come on tv. i love love love love love that show. josh duhamel is so gorgeous. sigh. haha. crazy fart.

anyway. it's like 6 days to the concert. oh my marder. i'm freaking out. i still can't play the stupid variation 3. shall go down earlier tomorrow to do some metronome work before individuals. yup. and i need to polish my instrument. i don't know how to. like that day i already used the silver polish yet it looked quite dirty. don't know le. hmm. i think i'm doing something wrong. or maybe the clothe is dirty. maybe i shall ask wenmin for her. she polished her bone and it looked fine. yup. think i'll do that. and i got to wash my mouthpiece. i brought the scrub home! shall go wash it later. i think i'll bathe my trombone one of these days. bring it home to bathe or something. i can imagine that it's filthy inside. how sick. yup yup. my bone needs a bath. yup jocelyn. it's a BONE. haha. get use to it.

i'm suppose to be doing the stupid gp mini presentation. but i'm quite lazy to do it. maybe later. mingde and i are doing on death by hanging. that day, shiwei and chan jing did on death by electric chair. and mr fang said that when the flesh burns it actually smells sweet, like barbeque smell because after all, it's meat. ok. how sick is that? freak out please. and death by gas chamber. if you take too long to do your body fluids would start to flow out. HOW FREAKING SICK IS THAT? oh my marder. i wonder who came up with all these REALLY sick ways of dying. yuck.

should i watch las vegas? or sleep early. hmmm. oh well. think about that later. as for now. on to my mini presentation. till the next time then.

you'll follow me back
with the sun in your eyes
and on your own
bedshaped
and legs of stone
you'll knock on my door
and up we'll go
in white light
i don't think so
but what do i know?
what do i know?
i know

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:05 PM;

Thursday, July 27, 2006

i want to sleep. so badly. i'm totally lacking sleep. it's been going on like this since like forever. was doing the stupid seating plan the past few days. which isn't really going to be used anyway. which REALLY sucks. because i had SUCH A FUN time drawing 135 mini boxes. and running up and down photocopying them. ya. and now. i have to do my stupid pw. of which i figured we're going to get a band 4. life rocks i swear.

ohmygod. my sister just called. on her handphone i suppose. then i can hear my own voice echoing in the background. and my voice is SO LOW!!! haha. that sounds really retarded. but i don't remember my voice being so low. i remember xingwen said my voice was actually quite high. and i sound exactly like my sister. gosh. that is SO weird i swear.

i can't find my angels and airwaves song. sickening shit. does anyone know the title of the song. one of the lines go "i can't live, i can't breathe, unless you do this with me." ya. my msn nickname. i love the song! sickening.

don't think too much into it dumb dumb. and remember the boyish looks that you are going to stare at forever more. and of course. that sexy voice.

oh well. think i'll go then. nothing else to blog about anyway.

we cannot find back what we lost before. i don't think it's really worth trying. but maybe we can start again. discover a new way.

i'm frightened at night and the wind has a roar
it seeps through the hall and from under the door
like the shit that was said
i can't take it that well
i give and i give and i give and i give and i'm still

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:55 PM;

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

i feel my eyelids shutting. but shit. i can't go to sleep. cause i'm waiting for zhi qi to get back to me with who is playing for which band. gosh. i need to sleep. tomorrow have to wake up so early again. meeting eunice, dorothy and jocelyn for breakfast! haha. then go to school for service learning. yup. we're going to clean one room flats. oh dear. haha. oh well. it's for charity! yea.

tomorrow is going to be a long long long long long long long long long long long long long long day.

i could just sit and stare at you and listen to everything you say for the rest of my life. yes. i definately could.

do i care?

i don't konw.

should i care?

i guess not.

but i kind of can't help it.

you'll complete me right?
then my life can finally begin
i'll be worthy right?
only when you realize the gem i am?

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:39 PM;

Saturday, July 22, 2006

I LOVE MY OOHGA SHAGA SISTERHOOD! yup. that's what we are until mindy thinks of a better name. ansley, alison, eunice, dorothy, fungyin, mychelle, mindy, jocelyn, zakiah, weiqin, xiaowei! we are the super unglam people who laughs really loudly; mouth wide-opened; banging the table; clapping our hands; stamping our feet. yup. that's us. oh yea. and singing kuku songs with kuku actions. and of course. singing our band songs. totally out of tune and totally wrong tone colour most of the time. but who cares. we have loads and loads of fun. i love having nothing to worry about. just sitting there and laughing our silly heads off. yes. i love my oohga shaga sisterhood. haha.

zak and mych: THANKS SO MUCH for that day. really really thanks many many. HAHA. that sounds so stupid. but yea. seriously. thank you so much ya? really needed to tell somebody all those stuff and i never got the chance to tell anyone. so just dumped everything on you guys that day lo. don't know why also. so sudden. but glad i did anyway. haha. thanks so much for the endless support. you guys rock i swear! haha. don't know what i'll do without you guys and the oohga shaga sisters. haha. sounds so silly la. what the hell. that's us isn't it? haha.

qazim and celia: my 2 best buds that i still keep in contact with from secondary school. other then ansley. and that doesn't really count. haha. yea. i miss you both like so much la. can't remember when was the last time i saw you all. but it's been like that for quite awhile huh? very sad. anyway. hope you guys are doing fune with your lives. do call me if you want to chat or something! haha. i miss you 2 like mad. miss you SO DAMN MUCH i swear. ohwell. haha.

luis: or is it louis? haha. so sorry. don't know how to spell your name. haha. anyway. conversing with you on my tagboard was real fun. now we do it on friendster. haha. as for the zidane thing. WELL. each to his own ya? or to her own. haha. so we should stop arguing about that. haha.

ansley: yakking at kfc was real fun. been a long time since we did that huh? yea. wished we had more time for each other. so ironic huh? that we still see each other all the time but hardly have anytime for each other. SIGH. what to do. if you ever get stressed out with your work do go ask someone else for help. i'm sure there's someone out there who can help you. no worries. we'll pull through ya? we definately will.

brian, lek, jialin: thanks you guys! so much. for agreeing to go for the concert. it really means alot to me. seriously. didn't want to bother you guys into going for another one of our concerts. but you actually didn't mind. yup. that was real great of you all. hopefully, will get to see you on that day itself. if not. THANK YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO much.

bang, hong heng, mingde: HELLO! my class buddies. haha. don't know what i'd do in school if it wasn't for you 3. haha. i never fail to laugh whenever i'm with you all. thanks for the neverending entertainment. must stick together for the next 2 years ya? don't leave me alone retained in j1. HAHA.

love love to all my friends. haha. this is a stupid shout-out entry. yea. like what the hell. haha.

this is the last time
that i will show my face
one last tender lie
and then i'm out of this place
so tread it into the carpet
or hide it under the stairs
say that some things never die
well i tried and i tried

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:39 PM;

Friday, July 21, 2006

ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS
ZIDANE ROCKS

i don't care.

and 2 matches isn't good enough. HELLO. 5 was suppose to be it. but at least he was punished. stupid materazzi.

oh. and remember.

ZIDANE ROCKS.
remember what frodo said in lotr? something about i wished the ring had never come to me? or something like that along those lines. ya. i wished the ring had never come to me.
and i miss you so much you woudn't even be able to understand. but for what? the person i miss isn't the one i really know.

i'm all out of faith, this is how i feel
i'm cold and i am shamed
lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed into something real
i'm wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn
you're a little late, i'm already torn

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:05 PM;

Saturday, July 15, 2006

my mucus is dripping like mad. ok. that sounds kind of sick. it's not dripping like mad. it's just that i've got sinus and it won't stop flowing out. ok. that sounds just as sick. stupid sinus.

pirates is out! and i want to watch it. shit la. when will we all have time to watch it la. sickening. i want to watch. so exciting. it looks damn nice. hmmm. oh well.

i actually passed my chemistry can? i can't believe it. haha. so shocking. whee whee. damn cool. haha.

in me lesson that day, the four of us decided that we were going to work on compassion and stop laughing at people in crutches. haha. damn rubbish please.

ok. this is a pretty pointless entry. i don't have much to say see. oh well.

ya. the world should stop blaming zidane and take a good look at materazzi. seriously. there's always 2 sides in cases like this. so ya. take a good look at the other side. of course zidane was wrong. but still. sickening that only he gets blamed and materazzi goes scot-free.

ok. i'm like super bored. i wonder if there's anything to watch on tv. highly unlikely. i give up la. i'm going offline. or something.

i don't know your thoughts these days
we're strangers in an empty space
i don't understand your heart
it's easier to be apart

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:33 PM;

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

YES YES YES! the common tests are over. haha. i sound so freaking retarded. but ya. they are officially over. WHEE!! haha. i'm going to fail everything. obviously. chemistry was actually manageable. but my brain kind of failed on me. so ya. f for that then. physics. well. what so you think? i'm so going to top the class. from the bottom. that's going to be ungraded i swear. maths was actually ok. i don't know. i think it's ok. but the others think it's hard. oh no. something is wrong with me. but i think i'll still fail maths after all. i mean. it's ok in the sense that if you gave me one whole day to do it i would be able to. so ya. haha. f for that then. beautiful huh? i already told my mama i was going to fail my common test. oh well. whatever. haha.

i actually watched the world cup finals. i'm so freaking saddened by it i want to cry everytime i think about it. i went to sleep around 11:30 after watched las vegas. woke up at like 1:45 and started watching the match. i was so freaking happy when zidane got the penalty. then that stupid italian guy did that stupid header to even it out. argh. second half was sickening cause there were like no goals. and then zidane head butted the same stupid italian guy. i was like WHAT THE HELL IS ZIDANE THINKING? god. i was so like, i don't even know the word for it. like WHAT THE HELL? and zidane got sent off. red card please. damn sad la. i was so freaking sad la. then italy went on to win the penalty shootout. argh. i could have just died there and then. then all these papers. all the headlines the same, why, zizou, why? ya. i'm like freaking puzzled. why the hell did he do that la? damn sad. like what a way to end a beautiful career huh? feel so sad for him. shall always remember him as being a wonderful player. and try my best to not remember that stupid red card incident. poor guy. next world cup, brazil is going to win. i swear. haha. so weird. talking about france all the way then now i want brazil to win. haha. teh. oh well. zidane won't be playing anymore. so ya. sad case i swear. wait 4 more years for it to come back again then.

went to town today with mindy, eunice and ansley. xiaowei joined us later. walked around pretty aimlessly. haha. actually. kind of got aim. looking for our band dinner outfits. haha. found a lot of really nice ones. but they were all so freaking expensive. how the hell was anyone suppose to afford that? madness. walked until my legs hurt like mad. seriously painful. met hilmi too. outside the shop that eunice is going to buy her dress. EUNICE. MUST REMEMBER TO BUY THE DRESS. haha. sat at gelare for quite sometime. then went on to wheelock place. went to the really nice paper shop. god i love it i love it i love it! it's damn nice la. i want to make a photo album like that too. why do i not have a SINGLE bit of creativity in me? tragic. then we walked around a bit. stood outside the adidas shop and watched the jose +10 advertisement. very nice. i like. haha. all the hot footballers. haha. did you know the 1st segment is actually much longer than what they show on tv? sickening. and they don't even show the 1st segment anymore la. irritating. oh well. very nice. stood there like idiots for quite awhile. haha. the boy who plays jose is damn cute. haha. reminds me that we had to explain the advertisement to mychelle yesterday cause she doesn't really see the link to impossible is nothing. haha. genius. then we went home! that was our day basically. haha.

i love going to orchard mrt. go up the escalator where i am surrounded by my hot footballers. haha. i wanted to go up and down a few times but ansley wouldn't really let me. so ya. haha. OHWELL. i think zidane is hot. hot old man. HAHA. that sounds so freaking wrong. but oh well. and his nice and clean shaven head. haha. i sound like an absolute pervert. but really! i think zidane is hot. oh well. i have weird taste i suppose. haha.

now that the common test are over, we're going to start banding like mad. yup. all out for the august concert. freak out. and alumni is starting soon. i can't wait! it's been forever since i last stepped into that band room. miss that place. many many. can't wait to play my lovely vincent bach b50 again. and of course. my courtois in sajccb. yup yup. back to boning. yay.

i'm waiting for mindy to come online so i can send her songs. but she isn't online. what only.

it's not that hard to fall in love with someone like you. every day and night.

it's just a line from the advertisement. doesn't have any hidden meanings. no. really. haha. i'm a big kuku fart.

i'm the underdog. as usual.

oh, crystal ball, crystal ball
save us all, tell me life is beautiful
mirror, mirror on the wall
oh, crystal ball, hear my song
i'm fading out, everything i know is wrong
so put me where i belong

the angels sang over and over again__ 10:15 PM;

Monday, July 03, 2006

it's funny when you find yourself
looking from the outside
i'm standing here but all i want
is to be over there
why did i let myself believe
miracles could happen
cause now i have to pretend
that i don't really care
i thought you were my fairytale
a dream when i'm not sleeping
a wish upon a star
thats coming true
but everybody else could tell
that i confused my feelings with the truth
when there was me and you
i swore i knew the melody
that i heard you singing
and when you smiled
you made me feel
like i could sing along
but then you went and changed the words
now my heart is empty
i'm only left with used-to-be's
once upon a song
now i know your not a fairytale
and dreams were meant for sleeping
and wishes on a star
uust don't come true
cause now even i tell
that i confused my feelings with the truth
cause i liked the view
when there was me and you
i can't believe that
i could be so blind
it's like you were floating
while i was falling
and i didn't mind
cause i liked the view
thought you felt it too
when there was me and you

love the song! haha. what the hell. it's when there was me and you from high school musical.

the angels sang over and over again__ 6:55 PM;

Sunday, July 02, 2006

i went out to study today! yay! with qazim. obviously. hilmi was suppose to come along. but he didn't in the end. oh well. so it was just the 2 of us. i studied chemistry. seriously studied. cause qazim wouldn't talk to me. and he wouldn't lend me his 8 days to read. that idiot. haha. but thanks to him la. haha. then celia came to join us around 4. after he lunch with a quarter of her cell group. haha. qazim left. to go to ps with his family. to buy himself a new ugly phone. nokia 6131 is it? or something like that. it's not really that ugly la. haha. went home. walked out to cold storage to buy pie for dinner. cooked out own dinner. watched legally blond. was going to go to sleep when qazim asked me to come online. so ya. that was my day. quite uneventful really.

qazim: thanks MANY MANY for accompanying me to study today. really appreciated it. haha. you were bored. or tired and broke as you put it, but you still tried to stay with me as long as possible. THANKS SO MUCH! haha. i'll do my best yea? though i think i'll still fail everything. haha. but i'll give you free tuition. no matter what. haha. thanks so much.

yep. going out to study with ansley tomorrow. IN THE EAST! yay! finally. i miss being an eastie. that sounds so absolutely retarded since i still live in the east and all. but it's like, half my day is spent NOT in the east. so it's quite like sad. last time, i schooled in the east, ate in the east, studied in the east and hung out in the east. and that's like outside my place that kind of thing. since we went to sajc, we've been studying at places along the red or purple line. that kind of thing. so yea? miss the east and all. tomorrow will be cool and all. i suppose.

i think i shall go. bye. ooh. here's a nice photo from friday.

i never knew
i never knew that everything was falling through
that everyone i knew was waiting on a queue
to turn and run when all i needed was the truth
but that's how it's got to be
it's coming down to nothing more than apathy
i'd rather run the other way than stay and see
the smoke and who's still standing when it clears

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:50 PM;

Saturday, July 01, 2006

common test start next week. ultimate shitness. i have yet to touch a single book today. no mood i suppose. some more i'm at home. nobody to go out to study with. since my usual study partners are done with their exams. sickening. oh well. think i'll try to persuade qazim to go out and study with me tomorrow. hopefully he'll be nice and go along. if not i don't know what i'm going to do.

the first week of school has actually not been that bad. minus chinese paper. that was like shit. how the hell are you suppose to do a comprehension that has blanks in it? HELLO. so ya. that is definately going down the drain. the rest of the week was pretty ok. hanging out with bang, hong heng and ming de again is great fun. missed those guys a whole load over the holidays. so fun to be walking around with them again. and the studying session after school with some band mates. yup. studying and talking of course. haha. realy fun. all the crap we talked about. like pregnancy and all that jazz. damn funny. none of us are ever going to give birth. haha. stupid kuku farts.

met celia for dinner last night. at town. she watched me eat actually. we watched 3 people steal our seats at the taka foodcourt right in front of our eyes. like thanks lo. those stupid tarts. finally got a seat. after dinner walked around aimlessly. crazy woman was on the high. haha. talking about all sorts of crazy things. then walked to far east. cause she wanted to buy shoes or a bag. but she couldn't find one. she came to the conclusion that god didn't want her to buy anything. haha. wth i tell you. sat down at some cha chat chairs after walking around for a really long time cause both our legs were hurting like mad. sat there and yakked for quite awhile. saw paul twohill and alot of lesbian partners. finally left the place. discussed about the society and lesbians and gays. haha. damn spastic la. can't believed we actually talked about such stuff. decided to take the train home. she had to top up her ezlink but it was expired. went to the passenger service to get change for her 50 bucks note. to tampines was $2.50, so she had to go back to get even more change. when we got to the counter, she didn't even say anything and the person gave her 2 $5 bills. haha. damn funny. just as we were going in, hear our names REALLY loudly. guess who. qazim. haha. so embarrassing la. crazy guy. announce to the whole world. hugged both of us at the same time. that bloody pimp. haha. took the train home together. camera whored like mad. haha. took so many pictures la. think we were making a whole damn lot of noise. haha. oops. qazim waited with me for the bus. yakked some more. recorded his voice for my message alert tone. DAMN funny please. haha. then i got home. watched some tv and went to sleep. yep. that kind of sums up my week.

guess i'll go. back to try and study or something. oh well. till the next time then.

when things finally do come my way, i don't know how to react. stupid.

i think i'll go to Boston,
i think that i'm just tired
i think i need a new town,
to leave this all behind
i think i need a sunrise,
i'm tired of the sunset,
i hear it's nice in the summer,
some snow would be nice
boston
where no one knows my name

the angels sang over and over again__ 5:09 PM;