just let me hear the angels sing.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

just came home from temasek. that funny place. it looks like a primary school now. seriously. like, WELCOME TO TEMASEK PRIMARY. haha. it's like. damn funny la. on the walls, there's a history of temasek. of TEMASEK, not our school. but of the lion city. how weird is that? and colonel william farquhar. whom me and xingwen were having a fun time making fun of. quite evil, i know. but very funny all the same. haha. anyway. the school looks like a primary school because of all the divisions of the staircase. like as if the people are so stupid and don't know how to make way for each other when there is a need too. and the steps and painted and our school values are written there. it is the school values right? teamwork and all that jazz. how long has it been since i graduated? haha. goldfish memory. just like bang. anyway. back to alumni. it's slightly better today i suppose. 2 more people. if that's any consolation. oh well. hope people do start coming down soon. but then the exams are starting. so ya. OH WELL. we played mozart! i like.. haha. so happy that we're getting to play that. it's such a nice song la. love it love it. yay. haha. alumni was interesting. as usual. haha. got to see xingwen after don't know how many thousand years. yup. so happy to see him la. haha. brings back fond old memories. haha. sounds so retarded. anyway.

i am SO thankful for renliang. haha. really. i am. i don't know what i'd do without him. he's so amusing la. just makes me laugh nonstop. yup. having him as my section mate was the best thing that ever happened to me in temasek. on the section basis. haha. and now that we're 'attending' (for the lack of a better word) alumni together, it just gets even more fun. all that crapping we do together. haha. damn rubbish. when it's just the 2 of us. i wished that dumb pok had come to sajc. stupid idiot. ohwell. at least we have alumni. haha.

my juniors are using autosol on the instruments! OHMYGOD. freak out please. even though it made the silver b50 actually LOOK silver, but it is NOT GOOD. not good at all. ohmygoodness.

ok. i think i should end here today. better go look for my gp materials. my file is getting sent for checking. SHIT. oh well. till the next time then.

mychelle, fung yin, xiaowei, eunice, jocelyn, mindy, ansley: when shall we go nerd together?

a distant motorcade and suddenly there's joy
the snow and tickertape blurs all my senses numb
it's like the finish line where everything just ends
the crack of radios seems close enough to touch

the angels sang over and over again__ 10:24 PM;

Monday, August 28, 2006

Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here I
f I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

i am happy. happy as any silly dumb pok can be.

the angels sang over and over again__ 9:30 PM;

Sunday, August 20, 2006

i went for temasek alumni that day. last tuesday. it was pretty much very funny. like how THE weijian and i decided it shall be the best of the lousiest imitation tokyo kosei wind bands. yup. that's what we are. due to the EXTREMELY pathetic size of the band. 1 flute, 1 oboe, 1 clarinet, 1 saxophone, 1 basoon, 1 trumpet, 1 french horn, 2 trombones and 2 percussionist. yes. welcome to the temasek alumni. haha. but then. as pathetic as it was, i still loved it. being in that band room. with the carpeted walls and the wooden panelling thingy. yup. i love that band room. alot. it just produces this homey vibe. haha. we played the da vincian ___. it was damn weird. the first part was this stupid fanfare thing that i couldn't really play. SHITNESS. and stupid eugene took my score away to play. SHOWOFF. haha. but he gave it back to me in the end. haha. and there was all that bitching. as usual. zat and his DO YOU KNOWs. haha. that abigail was a man? and all that jazz. damn funny. then we played blast from the past too. stupid eugene. that spoiler. had to spoil my happy together. STUPID EUGENE. haha. ya. but overall. the practice was damn fun. even though the attendance was horrible. and i needed to go to the loo! but i had no one to go with me. how sad was that? haha. then i didn't dare go alone. like HELLO. it's the 7th month can. haha. thank god i wasn't urgent or anything. haha. i'm damn stupid. so anyway. i URGE all alumni to come down for practice this tuesday. 7 pm in the temasek band room. i know you guys are all very busy with studies and all that stuff. but it's only 2 hours. all we're taking away is 2 hours of your 168 hours in a week. it's not really that much to ask for. so PLEASE, please come down for alumni this tuesday. thanks.

run around the track yesterday with ansley, mindy and eunice. then we did that thingy that mindy taught us. i kept rolling over. it was damn retarded. haha. i felt like a bloody fool la. i wonder how mindy can do it. then jocelyn's and my ass kept hurting. alot. because of that same bendy thingy. it's really damn weird. i'm still not very sure how to do it. haha. and we're running again next saturday! yay. it's the keep fit regime. and fill ourselves with more air. and mindy and mychelle. came super prepared. had nothing to bathe themselves with. mychelle didn't have enough towel space. DAMN funny la please. haha. had to use her DIRTY tshirt to dry herself. kuku girl. haha. hanging out with the girls is SO MUCH fun. haha. thanks you guys! for making my band life SO MUCH more interesting. you're the reason for my loving to come down for band. and of course all that music making the sajccb does together. yup yup. and of course. you.

and it's time to start nerding. as xiaowei puts it. haha. as much as i hate to, i suppose it is time. i so do not want to get retained. i think i'll just kill myself if that happens. seriously. ohwell. better start nerding already. went for physics tuition yesterday. kinematics actually makes sense now. i'm enlightened i swear. haha. yay. suddenly got the motivation to nerd. haha. nerd.

CELIA: everything will be alright. no worries. and if you ever need me, i'll be here. just clear all the stuff and then it'll be ok. trust me on that. i'm here to listen. always. and you just made me doubt our relationship. argh. haha. but nevermind. it'll all be alright. haha.

i miss qazim and celia. alot. i don't know why. it's so sudden. haha. OHWELL.

well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
how to pull it close and make it stay
if butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
was it you that kept me wondering through this life
when you know that i was always on your side

the angels sang over and over again__ 8:17 PM;

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

please do my pw survey! it's like SUPER urgent. thanks many many!!

http://www.makesurvey.net/cgi-bin/survey.dll/2F4A4A6B51744E79A98833EC4DE66D08

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:35 PM;

Saturday, August 12, 2006

so. band dinner was last night. it was real fun. even though before that it wasn't. at all. all that panicking because of the stupid seniors presents. as in. the presents were stupid, not the seniors. ya. especially the ones for our bone seniors. all that screwing and linking. damn mafan la. swear i could have killed myself la. sickening shit. but it turned out really nice. REALLY REALLY nice. i wish i could have kept them. but that would be quite stupid. since it was meant for them. and eugene and malorie's lamps. which actually turned out quite nice. the stained glass effect and all. their reactions were so funny. eugene was like, oh man. oh man. selvam! haha. TEH! that's the first person he said. then he just kept going oh man. damn stupid la. and malorie looked so touched. damn funny la. haha. and addison's cookie jar. and cheuk's bib. haha. damn cha chat i swear. how do you spell that? i shall go ask zaks. yup. so band dinner was real fun. was real sad that i didn't get to sit with my section though. SIGH. oh well. what to do. it's official. no more life with them. SO SAD. argh. that just totally sucks la. sigh. how eunice? what to do without them? SIGH.

after band dinner, mindy, jocelyn, fung yin, ansley, eunice and xiaowei came down to my place. mindy fung yin and xiaowei shared a cab with nicky. dropped off at the bus stop outside my place. they looked damn funny. haha. like stranded. in the middle of nowhere. walked to my place and dumped the stuff. then walked out to 7eleven to buy junk. walked out in our band dinner clothes. we must have looked quite mental. haha. especially me! i think i looked the most mental the whole night. in my red stripes. looked like i was going for ndp or something. haha. anyway. bought the junk and walked back home. took turns to bathe. almost fell asleep waiting for each other. stayed up and yakked. till like 3 am. i think. mindy and jocelyn ate their really spicy tom yum. damn funny. then mindy had really sexy lips. haha. panting some more. that sounds so wrong. but it was what was going on! haha. yup. funny scene. around 3, we couldn't take it anymore and went to sleep. mindy wanted to tell ghost stories but we were all too tired. haha. damn funny. that crazy woman. so we slept. i woke up at 9. cause had to go down to temasek with colin. he was going to conduct a masterclass for my juniors. after that, went to yong tau fu to eat lunch with the girls. minus eunice. cause she had to go home. all went our seperate ways and i went home to sleep again. such a pig i swear. oh well. haha. still feel like sleeping.

yup. so that sums up my last night and today. sort off. haha.

i'm in love. with that angel from heaven. yup yup. i am.
tell me what is between us now. i REALLY REALLY REALLY need to know. please.

dancing bears
painted wings
things i almost remember
and a song someone sings
once upon a december
someone holds me safe and warm
horses prance through a silver storm
figures dancing gracefully
across my memory

the angels sang over and over again__ 10:11 PM;

Thursday, August 10, 2006

it is finally over. not that i was WAITING EAGERLY for it to be over. but it is finally over. one family, one flag. oh my god. it was such a memorable night la. loved it. loved every minute of it. and our cool new dressing room. that was like super big. and all those pictures that we took. camera whores. with my really classic camera. i like.. haha. but whatever. haha. yup. can't say much about it. cause it's really alot to say. so ya. let's just leave it like this.

yup. this is so nice. i love this section photo. it's like. classic. really really classic. just looks so smart. i love this photo. and love the people in it. a whole damn lot. thank you all so much. for being there when i needed you all the most. when i needed that encouragement. thank you all many many. i love my bone section. to bits. and i really don't know what i'm going to do without the j2s.

went shopping today. with mindy, fung yin, mychelle and eunice. oh yea. and cheuk. HAHA. how weird is that. saw 2 dresses. which were really nice. and i really liked. one was like SUPER retro. the other one was striped and really loud. i bought the striped one. i figured i would NEVER wear the super retro one ever again. cause it's just too over. i so do not want to be seen on the streets in that. at least the striped one can still wear again. i think. spent quite alot. 71 bucks i think. in total la. with a belt and a hairband. which i think i'm not going to wear. oh my god. i'm an idiot. haha. were suppose to go watch the fireworks. but damn stupid. we didn't catch it. cause we thought we still had alot of time since the president was still inspecting the uniformed groups. or whatever they're called. i know it starts with c but i just can't think of the word right now. such an idiot. so we missed the fireworks. dumb dumb. but i feel accomplished. i actually bought stuff i wanted. it's been forever since i last went shopping. haha. yay.

got so many gifts to prepare. how. i'm like dead. i still haven't started studying for h1. nor have i started preparing the gifts. i might as well just kill myself. ok. i shall go print the photos now. till the next time then.

i wish i could have the last laugh. i wish.

i was halfway home on a jet airplane, halfway between joy and pain

thinking about walking with you by the evergreens

the way that light struck your eye, captured your face, nestled in my memory

caught up in your love

the angels sang over and over again__ 1:02 AM;

Thursday, August 03, 2006

and it's all just too little too late and we aren't given the chance to try again.
but then again. it's probably my own wishful thinking again. you probably don't even want to.
when everything seems wrong by ari hest

When you come back to your senses
Your heart overcomes your pride
I'll be here with an open mind
Here to break your fall from misery
You expect me to love just like you
Even though you won't admit that
You sink your teeth into something
You figure it'll come biting back
But I am not made to tag along
When everything seems wrong
And I still can breath when you are gone
When everything seems wrong to you
I don't know if we'd be better off
Living our own separate lives
Talking every once or twice
Whenever we need each other
I can't picture another arm around you
Wonder how I would react
Would I scream and shout in anger,
Or would I maintain some tact?
You know that you're my best friend
That kind of love will never run out
You know more about me than I know
Things I'd never dream of showing
But I can't change the way I'm feeling
And I'm not asking for miles of room
Just a little time to fill my tank up
Before I run on back to you
When will you come back to your senses?

the angels sang over and over again__ 11:42 PM;